I must confess in my youth i tried to be saved, but i did not detect God's presence.
I was raised as an Anglican with the KJV. I knew there was a God and I knew that the Bible was his instruction manual....but I never felt God's presence in church either. It all seemed so fake to me. The church seemed to ignore Jesus' teachings when it suited them. Going to war for example.....why was the church supporting bloodshed when Christ taught us to love our enemies? Why did church members argue about politics when Jesus taught us to be no part of this world? All I saw was hypocrisy. I left the church but I never left God. I went searching for him but he wasn't in the places I looked. A short time later...he found me.
There must be a source of conviction, where you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that what you have is the truth.
I know what this feels like. And I found out how it happens.
At John 6:44, Jesus said..
."No one can come to Me unless the Father who sent Me draws him". (NASB)
This tells me that when we search for God, he is actually searching for us too. And when he finds an agreeable heart, he "draws" that person....its like an invitation to get to know him. (John 17:3)
He is not the god of Christendom......nothing like him in fact.
I have lived in a Christian family, father was a converted independent baptist, mom, a catholic.
My brother, is a baptist as well. And my nephew loves the kjv bible.
I honestly just wanted to be myself in it all and not get caught up in the whole affair. Mainly because i care about a lot of people who are not Christians i find it very hard to see the Christian Salvation as true.
Unfortunately we don't get to call the shots with who God considers worthy of salvation. It is God himself who sets the standard and when you look at the thousands of "Christian" denominations there are...all claiming Jesus as their "Lord"....yet all teaching different things....one fact is inevitably true....they can't all be right....but in fact, they could all be wrong.
When Jesus comes to judge the world, what is the criteria that he uses to separate people as "sheep" or "goats"?
These are the only two categories of people at the time of the end. What did Jesus say about that?
Matthew 7:21-23:
“Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter. 22 Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ 23 And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness.’" (NASB)
So, only those "doing the will of the Father" will be saved. It doesn't mean just calling yourself a Christian and then doing nothing to live up to that claim...it doesn't mean prophesying in Jesus' name...it doesn't mean casting out demons....or performing miracles in his name either...none of these things identify a true Christian.
We have to be "doing the will of the Father" and loving our brothers....otherwise we could be found guilty of practicing 'lawlessness'.(John 13:34-35; John 15:7-8)
How would we feel if we were among those whom Jesus rejects?
It is up to us to find out what the will of the father is...and do it.
Now at my current age i have a degenerative health condition, and i am really getting serious about the deep questions of what is true or not.
None of us are getting any younger and ill health plagues many people today. It is comforting to know that there is a way to everlasting life in peace, good health and happiness on a cleansed earth free from the present strife. The majority of humans will never go to heaven because God never intended for any of us to go there when he put Adam on this earth....this was meant to be our permanent home.
Due to Adam's sin, God foreordained for a Kingdom with rulers and priests...Christ and 144,000 ones chosen for that role by God, not men.
"Then I looked, and behold, the Lamb was standing on Mount Zion, and with Him one hundred and forty-four thousand, having His name and the name of His Father written on their foreheads....no one could learn the song except the one hundred and forty-four thousand who had been purchased from the earth....These are the ones who follow the Lamb wherever He goes. These have been purchased from among men as first fruits to God and to the Lamb. (Revelation 14:1-4 Revelation 20:6)
This kingdom will restore all that Adam lost for his children. Ruling with Christ from heaven, these 'chosen ones' will bring redeemed humanity back to its original perfection, removing sin and death and restoring all the wonderful prospects that were before Adam and his wife. Satan's influence will be gone. (Revelation 20:1-3)
If we really want the truth, we have to be willing to put in the effort to dig for it.....it's all in the Bible.
Here is a publication that is designed to help you learn what the Bible says on various topics, including why we suffer, what happens at death, how to have a happy family life, and more. You might like to read it. Up to you.
Bible Study Book: What Does the Bible Teach Us?
There are answers to everything.....
Compare and see...its an amazing journey.