Think out the box for at least a min. Years ago I watched an UU sermon online. Majority of members are either atheist to one degree or another and/or just don't identify with organized religion.
The pastor described God by saying if there are a list of value(s) you want to have or strengthen that you would "call to" what would they be?
What are your most important values that in your worse moment you'd need them most?
God-quisi idiom not a man in the sky.
Core Values List: Over 200 Personal Values to Live By Today
There are 200 "gods" so I couldn't list them all.
In my worse moment, I'd call to:
Freedom
Sound mind
Expression
Strength
Vitality
What are your gods?