Manc sounds like me several years ago.
My current idea of "God" (meaning a being encompassing any lesser deities) is that it's not a personal-type being at all but rather a massive energy force which spins off souls that become new people--in rare instances today because most of us are reborn and living a series of lifetimes. This energy source is what started it all way back when. Creation accounts in various cultures are no more than people's attempt to explain how it all got here--just as mine is.
I think there might be lesser spirit beings that are just as natural in origin as humans, but these beings differ in that they do not have physical bodies; they exist as energy or what we call spirits. These are what we mean when we say there are angels or demons, because some have such different natures from ours that they seem evil to us.
I also believe it possible that the spirit of deceased people can be "caught" or choose to remain near some location important in some way to the person while alive. Ghosts, in other words.
Weird, huh?
Just think it through, Manc, would be my advice and do as I did--study lots of different beliefs and decide if any work for you, or if you want to tinker with them a bit to get to a system that makes sense. "Create-a-religion," in other words, one that satisfies you and the hey with what anyone else thinks of it.
When asked, I refer to myself as an agnostic atheist because my ideas of gods are so unusual, and I'm open to proof that any such do exist while believing they probably don't--not even mine.
< Big Grin >