Then you dont consider yourself a Christian, becasue you had no experience with Jesus, and the concept of messiah is a cultural Jewish thing, and not necessarily a divine or son of God.
I didn't say that. I said I had an experience of the Infinite, or the Absolute Reality, which I will justifiably call "God", and Christians see the Christ as God. But Jesus was the human being who lived 2000 years ago. He was both "man and God". The man part died.
Think about it like the Apostle Paul on the road to Damascus. He was struck down by a white light brighter than the noon day sun. To him, he encountered the Christ. That was not a body of a man. It was Spirit. I had a similar white light experience myself. So, when I said I did not experience the man, a human being, I meant just that. I experienced Spirit.
Paul identified that as the risen Christ for himself. I could say the same thing through that symbolic lens, though at that time it was just what it was, which was nameless to me. When humans experience Transcendence, it is common for them to translate and interpret that through the symbolic lens of their religious systems.
Since I had that experience prior to be a part of a religion, it was just Infinite, with no name. But theologically, that is what the "Christ" symbolizes. So I could call it that, sure.
You don't seem to really consider Bible divine revelations either.
I believe you can find eternal timeless Truth within it. However, I do not understand it in a magical way, that every single word of it was a direct dictation from God with infallible and inerrant facts in all directions. It simply can't be understood like that under the lens of a critical analysis.
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nor does it need to be in order to have value spiritually. God can still "speak" through it Truth, without it needing to fit our flawed expecations of it being "without error".
You rely completely on your own personal experience. Right?
No. I listen to and seek out others for their own experiences and thoughts to help illuminate my own and guide my thinking and practices all the time.
But what I do not do, is just let them tell me what they think the truth is and say my thoughts and experiences are not valid because their "prophet" has the final authority on these matters. I more than find massive flaws in that, and typically recognize all of that as coming from the ego, rather than inspired Truth.
I will take what I hear, and run it through my own experiences to see if it speaks the truth to me, even if it is something I've never been aware of before. Discerning truth from error, is something that can't be told in black and white "authoritative" answers with a capital A. It is something which must be cultivated through practice.
It's the difference between dancing, and counting steps.
When you say, you experienced with infinite spirit or divine, do you mean an experience that makes you believe a divine exist, or also, an experience that tells you about divine, and knowing the Divine and receiving messages and knowledge from the divine?
Let me answer this by explain a few things first. It is such that it is literally beyond belief.
Belief is something we hold in our minds mentally, in terms of concepts and ideas which we deem to be likely true.
Faith is something of an intuition of our hearts that feels into something that is true, when we don't have any direct confirmation of it. Even if our beliefs fall apart, our faith keeps us searching for better beliefs to support what that intuition pulls or draws us towards.
Experience is beyond beliefs into a direct evidential encounter with a reality. It no long needs to be 'thought' to be true. It is real. Experience replaces faith, it replaces an intuition or sensing of that higher reality, with an actual apprehension of it. And finally...
Adaptation is when when we have integrated that experience into informing all parts of our life and it becomes what guides and informs everything we think, feel, and do. I'm still working on that part of it.
So to answer your question with reference to the above explanation of these terms in order to avoid confusion. My experience does more than allow me to believe it is real. It convinces me of its reality, without needing to believe it. I don't believe I know what an orange tastes like. I know what an orange tastes like because of have a direct experience of tasting oranges. That's not a belief anymore. It's direct experience, or an apprehension of orange tastes.
So it definitely tells me about the Divine. Just like tasting an orange tells me about an orange. But, does it, "knowing the Divine and receiving messages and knowledge from the divine?, as you asked?
Knowing the Divine is a constant exploration and growth, the same as you would have in understanding and growing into anything of great depth. You could think of it in terms of a relationship with a spouse. As you grow, so does the depth of your relationship and knowledge of that "other" to you in your life, and you become more and more apart of each other. That's one way to talk about it.
But the idea of "receiving messages", is something I
wince at. It's not hearing voices. It's not communications from the great beyond, like hearing grandmother tell you truths from the grave during a seance, or something.
It's not like that. God is within you, and hearing that "voice" is much more an inner truth that is more of a realization than a "message".
The term I use which is much more accurate is an illumination of the mind. Like pulling the blinders back and seeing what was obstructed from view before. It's not "messages", but Truth that is always there, but merely obstructed from view.
It's a process of removing obstacles and seeing Truth, rather than "messages".
I don't believe in those in that way that those who are seeing for Answers to be handed to them hope for. It is much, much, much more of a
participatory reality, than a passive householder waiting for the mail to be delivered by the postman.