Ben Dhyan
Veteran Member
You keep asking me and others, " What are you pursuing and what are you receiving?" and I keep trying to explain that the transcendent religious state is non-dual, one is one with all that is. The pursuer and the pursued are one, the seeker and the sought are one, the meditator and the meditation are one. The reason one sometimes has a 'religious' experience looking at the sunset, etc., is not the seeing per se, but the fact that the mind is temporarily silent, ie., not thinking, due to the stunning beauty, as soon as you begin ruminating on the experience, the 'religious' experience fades away and all that is left is the memory which you then talk about, which is all just vanity.Of course. There are times when one feels a sense of connection to nature and life associated with a sense of awe and often gratitude as when gazing at the night sky and contemplating the dimensions and one's history and connection to those stars. Or when enjoying a beautiful sunset or a beautiful passage of music.
Incidentally, that's the first specific thing you've mentioned about whatever it is you are pursuing. At last, some common ground, something that I can relate to.
My problem is that I have asked a large number of RF posters (and another site before this one) the same questions I asked you. What are you pursuing and what are you receiving, and I can't think of a single example of any of them telling me anything that wasn't fluff - empty words, or what I called poetry.
Now you've mentioned I can understand. And if that's all that all of this is, why spend years in religious practice when that is available without it?
Why would I do that to find out if there is something there when the people who do that can't say a word that makes it seem worthwhile?
I did have a decade in Christianity, wherein I also had spiritual experiences and which I attributed to the Holy Spirit. I later came to understand that I was experiencing euphoric states in church at the hand of a gifted and charismatic preacher identical to the states I experience today with rapturous music, for example, and which, as @Polymath257 said, I have come to understand is an endogenous mental state.
That experience in religion taught me that there was nothing substantive there.
I think I do. I've asked you repeatedly to describe it. Unless you're holding something back, I think I understand that "reality" fairly well.
I think I grabbed the baby from the bathwater and took it with me.
You're correct that I have no further interest in religion. I think I have enough personal experience and the testimony of others to know that whatever benefit I experienced there is available without spending time in meditation or whatever your practices are.
Look, if there's more to it than you and others have said, I ought to know that by now. I ought to have gotten a taste in my religious days. One of the people I've questioned ought to have been able to say something meaningful to me. Some of you ought to seem to have something I'm lacking and would like for myself.
My musical adventure was a spiritual experience. The first time I heard Blue Sky by the Allman Brothers, it was so beautiful that it took my breath away. I remember thinking that these people are singing with their hands, and it was like flying. I wondered if I could learn to do that.
Not long after, I got my first electric guitar, and even thought I couldn't play it, just making sound with it was also a high. I couldn't put it down. I practiced four hours every weekday evening and ten hours every weekend day. And that went on for years. Eventually, I became proficient, and eventually played in and then later formed bands. I taught my wife to play bass, and we performed for years in restaurants and coffee houses.
That has been a spiritual journey. One point I'm making is that there was immediate feedback that I was on to something meaningful to me unlike with religion and meditation. I had the euphoric experience in church, which kept me coming back, but as I explained, I later discovered that experiences like that were available to me without religion. They were available playing guitar, for example.
And that's the other point: Like I said, I grabbed the baby from the bathwater. I learned how to reproduce those spiritual experiences without religion once I understood that they had nothing to do with spirits.
I'll share some of that with you. Here's our version of Blue Sky (I did eventually learn to sing with my hands, and later, my vocal cords). This is Ricky on lead vocals and rhythm guitar, my wife on bass and backup vocals, me on lead guitar and backup vocals, and a digital drummer. Won't you take a trip with us and Mr. Bluebird down to Carolina to walk along the river?
The important point I can make is that it is the still mind, a non-dual state of mind free from any and all thought, that brings on the truly religious experience, it is not seeing an awesome sight. There is no experiencer and an experience experienced, that all comes later from memory, and is vanity.
You keep talking about your religious experiences, but there are no truly religious experiences for you (or me) to have, for when your mind is still, and a state of non-duality is present, the ego self is not present. The way I phrase it is that, of the two selves, the ego self and the spiritual Self, only the spiritual Self is non-dual, so the ego self can never have a direct religious experience. Though it can and does have access to the memory of a religious experience, and erroneously claims it had the experience.
Nice story about your music in your life, and I can see why you may associate it with religious experience. There would be times no doubt when, it is not a beautiful sunset, but beautiful music, that put your mind in a state on non-duality (no ego self present) and a real religious experience would pursue. But your ego mind at the time is not actively interacting, only later to arise again after the fact and it is now only a memory in the mind, ie., a state of duality.
So I can see where you are coming from, and understand to some extent why you think what you have been experiencing is religious, but be assured, there is much more to the still mind state than you are presently are aware. For that potential to be realized, one must be able to still the mind and continue to increase the length of time spent in the non-dual state until spiritual transcendence occurs.