That may be your understanding but it isn't mine nor most of NT scholars.
About your disbelief in an Arab..600 years later..
41.44. And if We had sent this as a Qur'an in a foreign language other than Arabic, they would have said: "Why are not its Verses explained in detail (in our language)? What! (A Book) not in Arabic and (the Messenger) an Arab?" Say: "It is for those who believe, a guide and a healing. And as for those who disbelieve, there is heaviness (deafness) in their ears, and it (the Qur'an) is blindness for them. They are those who are called from a place far away (so they neither listen nor understand)
You should try to test the Quran for authenticity, I have done it with your books..they arent the words of God..they are human beings perceptions of what happend..(more comparable to the Hadith, Books about traditions of Muhammad).
The Quran in its original arabic, is a miracle..it is half prose and half poetry..no one in the arab world has been able to consistently rhyme with the same two same syllables, a small poem let alone an entire book which simultaneously relates stories and historical accounts.. The beauty of the Quran in its arabic is..that the poetry/way it is written is like an equation that balances itself, If anyone added a single letter to it, it would unbalance the equation thus losing it beauty or "miracle".
It might be really hard for you to accept but personally it would make more sense, If I regard Jesus as a Human..If i was to take him to be divine, it opens up a whole set of questions for me? Why isnt mary Divine?..she gave birth to God(Jesus)..Does God(Father) have these animal instincts and needs to have sex? If he did what will be the real reason he needs to reproduce? Why pass on his genes?..Is he going to die?
Unlike Jesus (of whats left of his teachings), Muhammad didnt preach that the only way to Heaven was through him..he preached that the only way to Heaven was through the father...Honestly I dont think Jesus would have preached a message any different than that of Muhammad..Christianity IMO got derailed from the start..from the belief of Abraham..in One true God..instead you say..he is One, but theres 3...available to us in 3 distinct persons? The God I have learnt of is distinct from his creation..he will never become part of it, or manifest himself in any form.. By taking Jesus to be God..IMO you step out of monotheism and lean towards polytheism..
God states in the Qur’aan for those who make Him like His creation or vice versa:
42.11 “There is nothing similar to Him.”
He also states for those who attributed to Him a son:
19.92 “But it is not suitable for Ar-Rahmaan (the Most Beneficent -Allah) that He should beget a child.”
He further states for those who believe that He created the world from Himself:
36.82“If He wishes anything to exist, He merely commands it: ‘Be’, and it is.”
For the polytheists He states:
23.91 “There was no other god along with Him, for if there were each would have taken away what he created and tried to overcome the other.”
He asks the atheists:
52.35 “Did nothing create them or did they create themselves?”
And in reference to Jesus and his mother, Mary, He confirmed their humanity by saying simply:
5.75 “They both used to eat food.”
About your questions regarding spirituality...I have had a naturally active 3rd eye (pineal gland) since I was 15..and the sleep paralysis that comes with that.. I have exorcised a demon..If you want to find out more of my understanding on the subject drop me a PM..there are both Good and Bad Jinn, like there are Good and Bad Humans...the direct descendants of lucifer are the "devils/demons", You have Muslim Jinn, Christian Jinn, Atheist Jinn. Although I think you are fooled when you think you are experiencing good things..or communicating with heavenly bodies via astral projection..they will play you on your beliefs..anything to make you lose faith in God and have faith in them...what was this bad feeling you had..please PM..I am very interested in your story..atlast something or someone I can relate to