Please don't think that I'm criticizing you in any way, my comments apply to everyone. We are all in the same boat, I'm no better than anyone else. I'm only stating what Jesus said, when He announced that He has come into the world to save the elect of God.
The elect of God are those people who God chose to save before He created the world. God knows all things and He ordains all things, He causes everything that happens in the universe to work towards fulfilling His preordained will. So nothing happens in the universe, that is outside of His will and control.
God created us in His own image, so we know that God looks like a man. He saw the future and He saw that mankind would fall into sin and that sin would separate us from Him, He will not tolerate sin in his presence so we were separated when our ancestors Adam and Eve sinned by disobeying God when He commanded them not to eat of a particular tree.
God knew that when we ate of that tree that we would be defiled and we would die spiritually. So we have all been born spiritually dead since Adam and Eve, as people who were born into this condition we have no power to make ourselves spiritually alive. Only God can do this for us, if He chooses to do it, He has chosen to save billions of people and He has also chosen to leave billions of others in their fallen, sinful and spiritually dead state.
The only difference between a saved person and an unsaved person is God chose to save one and leave the other in their fallen state, so I'm not saying I'm any better than you in any way. The only difference is I know that God has chosen to save me, I don't know if you are one of those He has elected to save or not.
Some people find out that they are saved while they are young and some when they are older, but you may be converted at anytime. Only God knows when a person is converted, I lived a very sinful life before God converted me at the age of 31. I never would have chosen to believe in Jesus Christ if God didn't draw me to Himself, as I was dead in my sins and trespasses.
I am the only one in my family who God converted, the rest of my family are still living in deception. They are all Roman Catholics, they trust in their good works for their salvation and I trust in the finished work of Christ on the cross for the forgiveness of my sins and salvation.
True Christianity is unique, it's the only faith in the world which doesn't teach salvation by works. Every other religion and faith all teach that you must do certain things to be made acceptable to God. Jesus simply said that He would save every single person who believes in Him, He didn't add any demands or works to His free offer of salvation.
Christ freely offered eternal paradise to all those who believe in Him, the Romans were murdering Christians for 3 centuries until they realized that they would never stop the spread of Christianity so they incorporated Christianity into their own Pagan religion and called it Roman Catholicism. They made it illegal to own a Bible, so they could change the teaching and add their own perverted meaning to the Word of God.
Roman Catholicism knew it couldn't make any money out of what Christ freely offered, so they changed the message of the Gospel so they could sell salvation. They they still teach that there is no salvation outside of the Catholic Church, they offer forgiveness and absolution for a sinner as long as you pay for them to perform the ritual of the mass.
Anyhow, I' sorry for going off into all of that. I just wanted to assure you that if you are one of Gods elect, you will eventually come to know God personally but if you are not than you will know His wrath after this life is over. I would be more than happy to pray for you, if you just let me know your name cheers