3 years ago I was pretty deep into sin and stopped going to church,reading the bible,and even praying
Since then I've desperately clawed st everything to try to find God begging,reading the Bible everyday for weeks,and crying but all for naught
All I want is some kind of conformation in my beliefs
I'm impressed with many of your responses ElytBlank which indicate more rationale and logic than I find even in older people. Glad to see you reaching out for truth and answers, but you should know by now that most influence derived from this site will not defend or encourage Christianity. Allow me to offer a minority perspective.
It appears to me that you reject evolutionary theory as an explanation for life and the universe. That alone is significant since studies show that the teaching and acceptance of evolution is the number one cause for youths leaving the Christian faith they were raised in. There's a plethora of scientific evidence supporting Biblical creationism over evolution, so you're already on solid ground there. But should you ever want or need to bolster that foundation, know that abundant books, articles, and videos exist.
It also appears to me that you want to believe in God if he's real. That's another encouraging place to be, because whatever evidence you find will be interpreted according to your preferred world view. That makes you very vulnerable now to what sources of information you seek. You'll find information easily available on the internet to support any religion, philosophy, or idea, be it truth or lies.
How then can one discern between the varous religions? By studying apologetics - a defense of each faith. This won't answer all of your theological questions, but it can certainly steer you towards one faith over the others. In the case of Christianity, it not only excels in manuscript authority, historical testimony, scientific foresight, and archaeological evidence, but in one area unlike any other: fulfilled prophesy. Once one studies and understands even a few of the Bible's specific, fulfilled prophesies, the Divine inspiration of the faith's foundational scripures becomes evident. It is, in short, the closest thing to truthful evidence - realizing a writing that can only be attributed to a supernatural being beyond time, space, and matter.
If there is proof evidence of God, then the never ending questions and complaints that skeptics pose shouldn't sway one's mind or heart away from Him. It isn't reasonable to expect mere humans to understand the mind and actions of such an awesome being. You should know though that there are abundant answers to the questions and challenges - some satisfying and some not, but none the less enough to defend the faith rationally.
Finally ElytBlank, understand that God rarely speaks to us in a physical, normal manner as we might like. For whatever reason, he has chosen to communicate with us through his creation, our conscience, written Word, and other people. If you seek him through the many paths of prayer, Bible reading, studying apologetics, watching sermons, attending church, and engaging with other Christians, you'll find your faith bolstered, your questions answered, and your relationship with God strengthened each year as you progress through life.