Hi Starsoul.
This is a very real issue for me and one that I have thought a lot about. To my mind, when I peel back all the layers inside of me - there will I find God. I seek to experience God in this life. I seek the path of the mystic.
To my mind submission to God is about being true to oneself. It is, in a sense, about "dying before I die".
I find the strict approach to Islam a path unsuited to me. I probably do intend to submit Islam to my views, I imagine everyone does - if they didn't there would never be disagreements. But Islam is a religion for all and I think there is room for me in it.
Perhaps I am mistaken?
Whatever the world thinks I am likely to consider myself a muslim - I don't think I can do otherwise
Perhaps mistaken only a very lil bit, but not entirely I think
You are right where you speak from and I wont deny that ,given the kind of life style most of us privileged people live, and the ways we have gotten used to, giving them up entirely is what seems difficult for us and at times we do give in to thinking that it is a tad bit too strict for us to follow, currently, but you never know how easier or more suitable a certain thing becomes for you, a couple of years down the road. It may be very difficult now, but there is no certainty that you wont be doing it, willingly and gladly, after some years, maybe 5, 8 or etc later on.
So, its good that you have got the conviction there MashAllah and thats very appreciable. What you may lack at this point, could be the courage, or the will to do something that you haven't felt like doing yet, and I can only say that one must pray to Allah swt only, to give us the kind of love for Islam and the kind of submission that He would like from us
nothing more nothing less. That pretty much sums it up, it is a gradual process and there is no hurry in getting ahead of our understanding, but yes definitely guidance is a continuous process, we seek guidance every step of the way, everyday of our lives, like for instance I ask for Allah swt to take my life at the strongest point of my faith, so that I may not be weak or fall into mis-guidance or astray since man is very very prone to that, muslims even more so, because shaitan is an arch enemy of people who are on the right path, and he is way smarter than us. Imagine, what is man alone without help from Allah swt infront of an enemy which is there to deceive us for as long as before humanity and knows the human psychology better than they themselves do, it is only Allah swt who can help us from his influence on our logic and it is only Allah swt who can protect us from his deception.( that is not meant to fear satan, but to actually know the ways how he influences us, parts of that knowledge that has been given in the Quran and the hadith and it is very helpful indeed in self catharsis).
And when that stage comes in your life when you learn to differentiate between the desires of your self and the desires of your spirit, that is the time that you will start seeing what submission really means, and how vulnerable a human is without that spiritual connection to his Creator. That is the stage of realization when you don't even think twice before submitting because you are so damn sure of what you feel and what to do when you feel that way.
We all have to work our way towards that stage, and we all desire to reach that stage as muslims , it is called eeman (true faith) which is ever growing. So, do not worry and just recite , memorize small surahs of the Quran, bit by bit( from the last chapter), just go with the flow and ask for help from Allah swt to always guide you to the right path, and he will always be by your side InshAllah taala, ameen.