Speaking as an ex-Christian and as a survivor of childhood abuse, the best thing I've ever done for myself was to let go of my faith, hope, and trust in God and renounce my Christian faith. I'm no longer ensnared in a religion that left me depressed and emotionally traumatized. It was a difficult journey for me to renounce my Christian faith and belief in God, but it was well worth it. The negativity I experienced while I was a Christian eventually led me to Wicca and, later, polytheism, both of which have been positive experiences for me. As a Wiccan, I don't feel pressured to worship a specific deity, nor do I feel pressured to uphold moral standards at all times in order to appease an extremely vindictive and jealous god who threatens to send me to hell and torture me for all eternity if I fail to play exactly by his rules. I don't fear the wrath of any deities, nor do I feel in any way intimidated by them. Being a Wiccan is liberating.