I'm confused: are you saying that you became an Atheist after having an "experience" with God/a deity?
That is exactly what I am saying. I'm a bit thicker than most so it took a couple such encounter to finally sink in. I don't expect the average human animal to fully understand. This is very much a "you have to be there" type of thing.
I have heard such claims before. It makes more sense than it looks like at first, particularly once one realizes that (most?) deities are very much human creations and explores the consequences.
Some people have actually engaged in the activity of creating personal deities and questioning their worth. I figure YmirGF did just that and then decided he had better ways of spending his time, but of course we have to ask him to know.
So close, Luis. What I began to understand was that I was experiencing my own creation. Perhaps my imagination, if you will, is far more profound and dramatic that is the norm. I'm willing to grant that, LOL. But yes, I literally met with the deity of Vishnu a couple of times until it just clicked. There was something in the eyes.... and what I saw was cathartic - with a capital "C". I've never been the same and it is quite impossible to either go back or forget, the experience was that indelible.
I promise to come back and add my experience, which is very pertinent here. But today I am taking a road trip. I do not want to give this a quick response.
I, for one, would be greatly interested in what you have to say.
This is too vague to mean anything to me.
It was intentionally so. It's sort of like a riddle or a koan. What do you think I saw? I'll eventually spill the beans, but it's so much fun to tease. Think.... what did I see? (Oh, the eyes were massive... like peering into two of the Great Lakes...)
The fact is, I don't really know what Ymir meant. If he wants to leave his story open-ended then that's fine, but I don't want to assign some 'meaning' to it that he didn't mean, either.
That is wise. Again, unless you have been in a similar meditation/spiritual/psychological state, you cannot possible understand the magnitude of the experience. It's not the same as intellectually "getting" an idea.
Ironically, I suspect you may be more right than you suspect.
My grasp of Ymir's beliefs is provisional at the very best, but I still think it is fair to say that he is big on "finding one's own truths".
It may be not so much that he wants to leave the matter hanging as that he finds it futile to attempt to fit his views in someone else's perspective.
There is some truth to this, Luis. Non-dual experience cannot be fully expressed into meaningful verbal terms. Heck, any verbal expression, necessarily, distorts said experience. For me, it's not so much about so-called "truth", but rather, it's more about keeping doubt and skepticism buffed to a high luster. I think of how much I have discovered on my own journey inward and realize there is so much more to know that I can't allow myself to be too rooted in a given perspective. I wish I had a dollar for each time I thought, "Ok. This is IT. I've finally hit the top. Nothing can surpass this." After awhile you realize that that is just the norm and one gets used to it - and expects it.
finding ones own truths is my perspective as well.
That's why I'm not assigning any meaning to it, because, it could mean a few different things.
But, yeah, I get what you're saying.
Again, so-called "truth", like morality, is not much of an issue for me. It's more about keeping open to new thinking and not stagnating in a given perspective because at higher levels of activity, for lack of a better way of putting it, your thoughts and expectations DIRECTLY affect perception.
It is possible that not making wrong assumptions is a priority to you, while not holding them is more of a priority to me, and for that reason I am a bit more daring than you in some matters.
We are birds of a feather here, Luis. I don't tend to think in terms of right and wrong. I'm much more fluid, as a rule.
Tomato tomahto. If he wants to explain further, fine, otherwise, it's vague.
Fasten your seat-belt.
Any comments, Ymir?
Asking me for a comment is akin to asking Legion for his thoughts on a given matter. The request may result in far more than was initially bargained for.
Can I encapsulate this? Hmmmm. I'll have to think about it to see if I can distill it sufficiently beyond what I have just posted.