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I have never believed in a personal God as worshipped by any of the Abrahamic Religions.
OK as well...
Throughout my life, I have not encountered a single piece of evidence that supports the claim that such a God exists.
Could this not say more about your method of approach, rather than the lack of evidence?
Need, desire, desperation, or fear are NOT factors when I am deciding if God exists, nor is the threat that I’ll “burn in hell if I don’t”. Also, I cannot accept “because I said so” as a valid argument for anything.
Sounds like you are talking with the wrong people
Bottom line, I am unable to exclude my belief in God from the same level of critical-thinking that I use to believe anything else in my life, and therefore, I have come to the conclusion that God does not exist.
Life is long, many people that have gone from not-believing to believing, and then back to not-believing. Give it time your mind will keep working, and you may be wrestling with it until the day you die.
So I say again, I have never encountered a single piece of evidence that supports the claim that an Abrahamic God exists, and I invite anyone to help me “see the light” by providing any such evidence.
Let me ask you this. Why do you want evidence so badly? You have already concluded God is not real from your extensive research, and world search, so why waist time asking for more evidence to examine? Could it be, deep down inside you really want God to exist?
Regarding Non-Abrahamic Gods, I’d like to keep those a separate consideration for the time being.
Again, thanks for sharing your journey, but I suspect your journey is long from over.