I tried daily for many years but was always left feeling empty, like I was doing it "wrong." I never felt the presence that others claim to feel and ultimately gave up, not understanding why I felt no relationship with God and others did so easily.
Dear
sunsplash,
I sense, that though you say you have given up on it now, not having experienced a spiritual connection with the god you believed in, saddens you still.
You mention having felt as if you had been "doing it wrong" but I'm sure, in truth, you do know, there is no wrong way in which to search for further comprehension, goodness and humility?
One thing, which - due to the way
I had interpreted the concept of "god" - at least took me by surprise, was how the type of connection we speak of now, lay not outside my own consciousness (like it usually does in relation to things external), but rather
within it.
This is why it is said that man, in order to be able to connect with the Divine, must first learn to understand and know himself; both individually and as an existing being.
I do not know if this is new to you or if it inspires you at all, but I wish you harmony and contentment regardless.