Do you think we have free will to make choices or do you think that fate/God is controlling everything we do? In other words, can we make our own choices or is everything we will ever do already been decided upon by God and we are just acting out what has been written on the Tablet of Fate? Are we all just actors in a movie that God has scripted?
Will can be free in the sense that A may be in a position to choose between X and Y without external constraint.
But I can't see how will can be free in any absolute sense. We're evolved creatures and our brains have at least two levels of evolved decisions-making processes, instinctive (as for example in sport), and considered, as when you;'re thinking of changing jobs or buying a new car &c. Each of those follows the procedures of the brain; there's no way of deciding independently of your brain's decision-making processes. These involve multiple interacting chains of cause and effect, procedures totally invisible to consciousness,
Even if you reject that, if God is omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent, perfect, as [his] billing says in Christianity and, to the best of my understanding, in Judaism and Islam too, then God perfectly knew and intended everything that would ever happen in the universe, including everything anyone will ever think, say or do, right down to every letter of this post. and all the bucks stop at [his] desk ─ there's no other possibility from those premises.
I ask this because I do not think I have the free will to change much of anything in my life yet I feel like I need to change many things. But I cannot seem to change them. I am very strong willed person so whenever I set out to do something it gets done, but I cannot seem to make up my mind to do certain things and do them, so I feel stuck in a lifestyle I do not like.
Is not your complaint, then, not lack of the power to make unconstrained choices, but personal indecision?
And if so, isn't it therefore time to get outside advice, a wise and trusted friend, or a professional counselor?
(And if the real brake on your enterprising side is depression, then maybe the place to start is walking for a hour each day. It can make a hack of a difference.)