There are lots of threads floating around the forums these days arguing for and against God's existence.
God has not made her presence known to me in my life. I see no reason to need to believe in her in order to be happy, to reason, to behave ethically, or to understand how things work.
Perhaps God judges our fate in the afterlife? If there is some life beyond death in which she will judge me, I have no control over my fate, as I don't even know what the nature of such an afterlife would be, or by what criteria I'll be judged. Humans offer lots of opinions on that subject, but none has presented a convincing argument that demonstrates they are any more in the know on the subject than I am. So I have no reason to live my life any differently based on what may or may not happen beyond death.
In short, even if God does exist...does it matter?
I always appreciate your honesty, and I do not think anyone should ever believe in God "just to believe" because if they do not really believe that God exists that would be dishonest. Moreover, I think that believing for a reward is selfish and it is something we are admonished not to do in my religion.
I am sure this is going to sound rather dorky and maybe like an oxymoron, but I believe
it only matters if God if exists, if God exists. Moreover, if God exists, it matters a whole helluva lot. But what do I think it matters? The main reason is because if God exists and God revealed a message/messages to us, then it is a guide to living as God wants us to live as well as guide to gaining eternal life, which is a state of the soul that is near to God. Think about it. If we know nothing
about God, how can we possibly ever be near to God? Not only that, but if God exists and revealed the whole purpose of our lives, and we never know what that is, we will be handicapped when we die and enter the spiritual world.
“The beginning of all things is the knowledge of God, and the end of all things is strict observance of whatsoever hath been sent down from the empyrean of the Divine Will that pervadeth all that is in the heavens and all that is on the earth.”
Gleanings From the Writings of Bahá’u’lláh, p. 5
So what that means is that knowledge of God is the most important thing we can possess and just as important is adherence to God's ordinances.
So do I think it matters if one believes that God exists just to believe that God exists? No, I do not see the value of believing that God exists unless we also believe on the Messengers of God who reveals who God is and what God wants us to do. Otherwise all one is believing in is a concept -- God. It avails them nothing of practical value or even spiritual value.
Let me explain something personal that might help you understand what I mean. For most of the years I have been a Baha'i, I was in hibernation, meaning I did not have much to do with the religion or with God. Not only that, but before i became a Baha'i and even after that, I had not read the most important Writings of Baha'u'llah that explain who God is and why it is important to follow the teachings and laws. So all those years I was not really a believer like I am now. I believed that God existed but it had no significance to me since I did not know anything about God, and I really did not care about God or being connected to God. I did know many of the social and spiritual teachings of Baha'u'llah, and that helped guide my life, but God was left behind in the dust. So I could have just as easily been a humanist as a believer.
I hope that makes at least some sense to you, at least from an intellectual point of view because I know you are quite the intellectual.
I also approach belief in an intellectual way, not in an emotional way..