Been there, done that, got taken in (well, I was a young teenager at the time) learnt to think critically, saw the contradictions, saw how I'd been emotionally taken in, got better.
When I was indoctrinated into a faith. Then I became an atheist and began critical thinking but after independently investigating found God. I found both critical thinking and indoctrination to lead me away from the truth. Now I know of myself, by myself, within myself that God is.