How come then, I can I live my life very happily without God, it does not make me, break me, I am still creative and is fictional
That is because we have free will. The apex of our animal state is to live a full material life. Survival of the fittest, look after # 1
Wheras the apex of spiritual rebirth is submission unto God and becoming a servant to all of humanity. Serving every person as a brother or sister, as one's own flesh. It means becoming selfless which includes looking after one's own self to enable selfless actions.
Regards Tony