Spiderman
Veteran Member
God wanted early Christians to be decapitated, crucified, dismembered, raped, fed to wild animals, used as torches at the Olympic games, grilled alive, and be underground , living a nightmare for centuries, till Constantine and some Christians decided to stop being lambs and start being lions and killing.
But God wants you to suffer and die. Either that or he isn't omnipotent.
Whether you believe in God or not, you're gonna suffer and die. I live where George Floyd was murdered and went for a walk near Smith bridge early am hours and somebody got out of their vehicle and started firing a gun across the river.
That has happened before around here.
The only reason the city isn't still getting burned is because National guard have checkpoints and tanks driving down university.
(As I type this there are actually sirens approaching). Eventually police said essentially screw it at one point and let the buildings burn and be looted.
Justice for Floyd is important no doubt, but I'm discovering there is a lot of racism that is publicly accepted, and I've heard plenty racial slurs uttered against me , had pop and water and things chucked at me while I panhandled, that eventually I started charging vehicles head on, begging people to shoot me and getting on top of them.
The same guys that used to make fun of me salute me now.
Some guy came barging into my apartment without permission not long ago and I jumped up with a knife and shouted get the **** out out if my room, and he backed off and said "someone said you stole my card , I'm sorry".
Someone else stole from me and I entered his apartment and started searching his cupboards and backpack as he's trying to restrain me.
It was very enjoyable.
Another guy came for my neighbor and started entering my apartment and I pushed him out.
The Dude that claimed I stole from him returned with a pistol or so he claims. I didn't see it. He started acting hard so I looked him in the eyes without flinching and said "blow my brains out if you wish to enter this hallway *****!"
The guy was like twice my size too.
Another car drove up and some drunk guy said "Go home white boy. You're mamma wants you home....Come closer to the car white boy. I wanna show you my gun."
I smiled and told him " that's gonna leave a mess on the pavement for someone to clean up." Then belched as loud as a could and started walking towards the vehicle with a grin.
The guy next to him reached over and rolled up the window. They drove off.
People want to see some kind of fear. As long as you show timidity they will keep messing with you.
At age 12 I was put into a cell with Anthony Evans who raped, tortured, and drowned a girl in the Hungry horse river.
The guy had evil in his eyes, weird posture, looked like the Devil himself, would whisper to me from the bunk above and try to get me to think I was hearing voices that weren't his, make obvious sexual advances so I kept telling him to **** off!
He threatened to kill me, tell me not to sleep at night, and eventually he attacked and I tried gouging his eyes out with my fingernails, tried ripping out or crushing his trachea as hard as I could.
Officers showed up and moved me to a different cell.
I've also had arms tied up in my shirt so I couldn't move them and stabbed with plastic shanks.
Last time I got arrested, Minneapolis police yanked my arm out of socket , and in jail they told me to put my arm on the wall and I couldn't lift it.
They had someone come feel my arm and insisted there was nothing wrong with it.
I asked for a nurse. They said, "we will bring you gandalf" and denied me medical care.
I started making some noise from the pain and was told "shut up."
I actually had to wait till after discharge, then call 911, then have X-rays, and have my arm put back into socket.
My attorney got the ROI and is getting the charge hopefully dropped because of excessive force but I'm told if I wasn't white I'd have a lawsuit against Minneapolis police.
Whatever, someone is slowly dying in agony and horror somewhere , so nothing to complain about here.
However, if I truly love the nightmare and suffering, I'm going to be way more happy, way stronger, way all around better person.
If you love suffering, addictions can be overcome , you can get better grades, work harder, have more self control, and all kinds of benefits.
Anyway,
I may have shared this, I explain more here in video, why God wants us to love darkness and evil. Bible says he creates evil, and even if he didn't, he chooses to refuse to heal and guide people, leaving everyone who seeks him divided and confused, because he would find the movie boring without drama, action, death, and war.
It's also because he doesn't want us to be cry babys always running away and scared of our own shadow.
People that love suffering, smile at whatever the news is, and love being terrified, will be more happy people than those who hate it.
It's a sick world so might as well enjoy being sick because you will die anyway.
But someone on other site says he just bought me a Joker costume. I hope it fits. I'm excited about my vocation.
Joker was inspired by a man whose face was cut so that he had a constant grin.
To have genuine unshakable happiness in every circumstance and always smile and love afflictions is truly a big secret to happier world.
Thoughts?
But God wants you to suffer and die. Either that or he isn't omnipotent.
Whether you believe in God or not, you're gonna suffer and die. I live where George Floyd was murdered and went for a walk near Smith bridge early am hours and somebody got out of their vehicle and started firing a gun across the river.
That has happened before around here.
The only reason the city isn't still getting burned is because National guard have checkpoints and tanks driving down university.
(As I type this there are actually sirens approaching). Eventually police said essentially screw it at one point and let the buildings burn and be looted.
Justice for Floyd is important no doubt, but I'm discovering there is a lot of racism that is publicly accepted, and I've heard plenty racial slurs uttered against me , had pop and water and things chucked at me while I panhandled, that eventually I started charging vehicles head on, begging people to shoot me and getting on top of them.
The same guys that used to make fun of me salute me now.
Some guy came barging into my apartment without permission not long ago and I jumped up with a knife and shouted get the **** out out if my room, and he backed off and said "someone said you stole my card , I'm sorry".
Someone else stole from me and I entered his apartment and started searching his cupboards and backpack as he's trying to restrain me.
It was very enjoyable.
Another guy came for my neighbor and started entering my apartment and I pushed him out.
The Dude that claimed I stole from him returned with a pistol or so he claims. I didn't see it. He started acting hard so I looked him in the eyes without flinching and said "blow my brains out if you wish to enter this hallway *****!"
The guy was like twice my size too.
Another car drove up and some drunk guy said "Go home white boy. You're mamma wants you home....Come closer to the car white boy. I wanna show you my gun."
I smiled and told him " that's gonna leave a mess on the pavement for someone to clean up." Then belched as loud as a could and started walking towards the vehicle with a grin.
The guy next to him reached over and rolled up the window. They drove off.
People want to see some kind of fear. As long as you show timidity they will keep messing with you.
At age 12 I was put into a cell with Anthony Evans who raped, tortured, and drowned a girl in the Hungry horse river.
The guy had evil in his eyes, weird posture, looked like the Devil himself, would whisper to me from the bunk above and try to get me to think I was hearing voices that weren't his, make obvious sexual advances so I kept telling him to **** off!
He threatened to kill me, tell me not to sleep at night, and eventually he attacked and I tried gouging his eyes out with my fingernails, tried ripping out or crushing his trachea as hard as I could.
Officers showed up and moved me to a different cell.
I've also had arms tied up in my shirt so I couldn't move them and stabbed with plastic shanks.
Last time I got arrested, Minneapolis police yanked my arm out of socket , and in jail they told me to put my arm on the wall and I couldn't lift it.
They had someone come feel my arm and insisted there was nothing wrong with it.
I asked for a nurse. They said, "we will bring you gandalf" and denied me medical care.
I started making some noise from the pain and was told "shut up."
I actually had to wait till after discharge, then call 911, then have X-rays, and have my arm put back into socket.
My attorney got the ROI and is getting the charge hopefully dropped because of excessive force but I'm told if I wasn't white I'd have a lawsuit against Minneapolis police.
Whatever, someone is slowly dying in agony and horror somewhere , so nothing to complain about here.
However, if I truly love the nightmare and suffering, I'm going to be way more happy, way stronger, way all around better person.
If you love suffering, addictions can be overcome , you can get better grades, work harder, have more self control, and all kinds of benefits.
Anyway,
I may have shared this, I explain more here in video, why God wants us to love darkness and evil. Bible says he creates evil, and even if he didn't, he chooses to refuse to heal and guide people, leaving everyone who seeks him divided and confused, because he would find the movie boring without drama, action, death, and war.
It's also because he doesn't want us to be cry babys always running away and scared of our own shadow.
People that love suffering, smile at whatever the news is, and love being terrified, will be more happy people than those who hate it.
It's a sick world so might as well enjoy being sick because you will die anyway.
But someone on other site says he just bought me a Joker costume. I hope it fits. I'm excited about my vocation.
Joker was inspired by a man whose face was cut so that he had a constant grin.
To have genuine unshakable happiness in every circumstance and always smile and love afflictions is truly a big secret to happier world.
Thoughts?