Don't just say meditate because that isn't really too spiritual to me.
Why is that the only thing we can think of?
Perhaps you should be less concerned with what is "spiritual" and more concerned with practices that might benefit you. Meditation, prayer, ritual, and other practices associated with religious traditions can be helpful in benefiting you, although ultimately, when one enters deeply into these practices, one goes beyond the desire to benefit, which is merely an attachment. Detachment as practiced in Buddhism and other spiritual traditions does have benefits, but that is not the goal.
I need spirituality to live but religions are stupid and science has no spirituality in it.
I am mostly Pantheist and I like Buddhism alot.
You should really be more familiar with religions before dismissing them as stupid. I'm not saying religious organizations and so-called religious leaders and lay people aren't corrupt and often very stupid, but the world religions have all produced ingenious people and spiritual disciplines that help transform a person. Transformation, death and rebirth -- these are common themes in many religious traditions, including Buddhism, and I'm not talking about reincarnation in the traditional sense; it has more to do with our everchanging egos, our sense of self.
Buddhism doesn't really hold many grounds for proof in it though.
You don't need proof to apply the disciplines of mindfulness and meditation. As an introspective person, you should explore these practices. You can never know if a practice will work unless you actually put it into practice with discipline. Meditation and mindfulness eventually calm the mind to help one peer more deeply into the nature of mind and thought, though I would recommend reading about meditation before trying it. There are both possible risks and benefits.
I'm not going to sit around all day chanting "Om Mane Padme Hum" because I don't speak that language and I don't know what it means.
You don't have to do this to be Buddhist. Actually, various methods of prayer and meditation exist in Buddhism and in all of the world religions, including Christianity. Many Christian mystics and saints and writings such as The Cloud of Unknowing exhibit strong parallels with Buddhist teachings.
Why chant spells to remove bad Karma?
Depends on who you're asking. The core of Buddhism, the teachings passed down from Siddhartha Gautama, has nothing to do spells or bad karma in the sense of a reincarnating ego, and not all Buddhists believe in traditional reincarnation.
I know about Naturalistic Pantheism but that isn't very spiritual either.
Why? Because it doesn't involve magic or the supernatural? What is spiritual about magic or supernatural beliefs anyway? Spirituality in the way I practice it has nothing to do with these things.
I just wish I could be Christian again. That was the only time I've ever been happy.
You can be, but you will probably need to study Christian history and theology more, especially the saints and mystics. The mystics often strongly parallel Buddhist teachings. The journey of mysticism -- into God, if you will -- is not about knowing or answers. It's about mystery and ineffability. You should search for answers -- I do. But you must be willing to ultimately let all of those answers go, let them dissolve into nothing because nothing is all we really know.
I can't force myself to believe something I know is false though.
Well, that's your problem. Not forcing yourself to believe something that is false -- you should use your intellect. But a spiritual discipline, a practice, is just that -- a practice, and all theology and mythology should translate into a practice, a way of living, transformation.
Traditional trinitarian Christianity is founded upon certain teachings, called Dogmas, especially the Nicene Creed. But dogmas are mysteries that can never be known or adequately expressed. Doctrine is an attempt to do this, but ultimately they break down. Dogmas are not teachings that we know. They are a frail attempt, a language, pointing to what we do not know, can never know, and can never express.
If you want to be a Christian -- and you wouldn't necessarily have to be a trinitarian -- it is important to realize this. Even the conservative Roman Catholic Church acknowledges that dogmas are ultimately mystery, and the saints and mystics attest to this, ancient and modern. If you approach Christianity from this angle, the problem of "true" and "false" disappears. You are thinking in a modern, Western, analytical mindset. Spiritual disciplines aren't so much about thinking as being.
I really wish I could.
This is getting much too old.
I really think there are no answers on this stupid planet and that makes me think I don't have too much more time here.
Look for answers, but never get attached to them. They will flow away and disappear like everything else. Hanging on to answers for security or defense -- all of this is a painful attachment, needless suffering, clinging after a solid, permanent ego and worldview. The fact is, your perceptions will always change, as long as you have them.
I have studied nearly every religion to no end in the past few years as well as many sciences.
I have always lost more than I have gained. Knowledge is poison. Ignorance, bliss.
You may have studied much, but there is no possible way you could ever cover all world religions in depth in only a few years, or the sciences. You would do well studying one for a lifetime.
I can relate to knowledge feeling like poison. It can be very threatening to have your beliefs challenged. They are, after all, a part of what we think of as ourselves, especially if we grew up with religious beliefs. But you must let these go because your worldview and beliefs will never be stable. They will always change. Some opinions may remain stable, but others will be overturned, others deepened, fleshed out. This is simply the nature of ego. It is a changing phenomenon. Clinging to answers will only bring you pain because all answers ultimately slip away.
While learning and having your beliefs evolve can be painful, it might also help you in the end, as it did me. When the answers you're finding are painful, detach and accept them for what they are, and acknowledge that answers are ultimately finite and cannot truly encompass reality.
Don't just say meditate because that isn't really too spiritual to me.
