Kriya Yogi
Dharma and Love for God
The state of being tired of the world is a sign of being an old soul. Disliking the evil and insincerity of people and the world is a sign of wanting something more substantial. The state you are in can make you free if you have a reciprocating love for God. This is why people become monks and renunciates. The key now for you is looking for the best way to connect to God, and I can assure you that path is Yoga meditation. I emplore you and anyone that feels like this to find a way to become initiated into Kriya Yoga. Everyone should know this liberating technique. If you can learn this technique and practice it daily it will connect you to God. It's a scientific technique that works for everyone. There is also mantra meditation, and Aum meditation where you focus on listening to the blissful vibration of Aum in your right ear while meditating. Looking into the third eye or the point between the eye brows in the deep space of your internal vision while practicing the Aum technique will withdraw your consciousness into spiritual realms. By daily practice of Kriya yoga and these other meditation techniques you are then changing from one that talks and reads about spirituality to one that actually experiences spirituality. It sounds to me that is what you need my friend. An actual contact with God's spirit is possible if you call to him with deep love in deep meditation. His response will be love and bliss over your being. I only say these things because I know they are true and work for me. It will change your outlook on life and inevitably bring God and his grace into your life. I can attest to this personally.