It seem like you are honestly asking for understanding
Ken - Do you believe He will lead you into all truth?
Do I believe God will make me God? No! Of course not!
Disconnecting...
I didn't even say that and we certainly don't become God.
I believe I am being taught by God's son. Does that mean "led by the Spirit of God"?
No... let me quote Jesus:
John 16:12 `I have yet many things to say to you, but ye are not able to bear [them] now;
13 and when He may come -- the Spirit of truth --
He will guide you to all the truth, for He will not speak from Himself, but as many things as He will hear He will speak, and the coming things He will tell you;
14 He will glorify me, because of mine He will take, and will tell to you.
15 `All things, as many as the Father hath, are mine; because of this I said, That of mine He will take, and will tell to you; YLT
And then Paul:
Romans 8:
14 for as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are the sons of God;
The Holy Spirit (the Spirit of truth) will lead you into all truth.
I didn't know you were talking about yourself.
The word "Apostle" is a delegate, messenger, one sent forth with orders (Strongs Concordance). These are people that are sent across the globe making disciples. Evangelists (those who preach to masses) are also sent ones and usually don't stay making disciples (Phillip is a good example). Pastors stay in one place making disciples. Teachers usually stay in one place making disciples.
We have to take the whole of the Bible and not just 3 scripture versus thus there are other questions such as if the person is married and does she have responsibilities that God demands of her. (It also applies to a "him")
We are a body and every part of the body has a function. Fingers stay in one place, blood cells travel but they all work together.
If the Holy Spirit wants you to stay home and teach other people and disciple other people... that is what He will place in your heart. But we can't forget what Jesus said either "He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much". To think someone needs to "travel and make disciples" but hasn't even been faithful to do what was required in raising children, serving at a church, etc... then the Holy Spirit won't send her across the world.
It
sounds like you don't believe you are supposed to go to the nations. I would say that the Holy Spirit is leading you to stay right where you are and influence those around you for the good of His Kingdom.