I seriously doubt that I would break anything or have internal problems unless I jumped from the roof but the middle window is about 6ft so a 6ft fall yes I could break my anchlel or foot but that's about it.
You don't want that psych ward stuff though; it's a real drag.
Or maybe you do?
It's possible that this is the entire point of this thread of yours though - a cry for help?
I'm actually not even being facetious about this either - I get it, I've been there a million times myself - lots of veiled, sometimes passive aggressive cries for help, sometimes aggressive aggressive cries for help including actual suicide threats and negative attention seeking from me when I've been in distress and don't know where to turn. Some of the dumb **** I've done over the last 20 years actually makes me laugh when I reflect upon it - I share this with you because I'm a living breathing example of the fact that these thoughts and feelings will inevitably pass in one way or another - change being the only constant in life.
If this is what is really going on, I'd suggest asking for help from the appropriate people. If that happens to be hospital (even presenting to emergency) then it'll be worth it - I know I'm just a stranger on a forum but, like I said, I've been in unbelievable distress, wild mental states and dark, seemingly hopeless, places.
I'll make two important assumptions about you that I am willing to bet money that are true: (1) you don't really want to do something to yourself that might have permanent regrettable consequences; (2) you want help but don't know how to seek it or don't have faith that the help you'll be offered will be effective.
Bottom line is - ask for help. There's no shame in it and it's actually a reflection of a kind of strength and might actually be the beginning of something beautiful that you might never have known existed or that you were capable of experiencing.
I guarantee that things will get better for you if you reach out for appropriate help and care.
Or maybe this thread is a big goof and my post is sappy lol. But this mental health stuff is pretty close to my heart. It works.
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