I want to jump from my middle window because I want to conquer my fear of heights one and for all and I am genuinely interested to see if the middle window is a high height or if it's not that high and I want to see if I feel any pain and if so how bad and if I break any bones or anything this may sound stupid but I have a curiosity with this and manily I want to not be scared anymore of heights.
You might end up more scared of heights after hurting yourself.
But we have a fear of heights for a reason.
It is becoming to blase' around heights can be dangerous. Familiarity breeds contempt and all that.
It is possible to keep your fear of heights and mindfulness of what could happen if you fall, while overcoming that fear by placing yourself in high places.
I end up on high roofs and ladders but at the same time allow my fear to guide me about what is not safe for me.
We are all different and it does not really matter if I am more or less scared of heights than other people,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, but at the same time it is not good to have a overpowering fear of heights (or maybe of anything) that causes us to freeze in certain situations.
Interestingly the middle line of windows in that building is not much higher than the front door. Jumping onto soft grass from the middle line looks safe enough. Then again I know someone who stepped down from a few rungs up a ladder and managed to break his leg and spend 3 months in hospital and is still on crutches.
Maybe work up to it so that your bones have time to strengthen.