That is very, very funny, because you have made some assumptions, facts not in evidence...
I became a Baha'i at age 17 and I was
not searching for God or religion when I stumbled upon the Baha'i Faith.
It was shortly
after I became a Baha'i that I started to run away from God for most of my life, since had no desire to believe in God.
That went on for about 42 years.
Then about seven years ago logic and reason finally caught up with me and I realized I had better get square with God since I am getting older and I do not have that much time left on this earth. That is when I proceeded to go on the Planet Baha'i forum and talk to other Baha'is about God and Baha'u'llah.
I recall telling people that I was about 80 or 90% sure that Baha'ullah was a Messenger of God during the first couple of years, but the more I uncovered in my research, mostly because of all the questions I was fielding on an atheist forum, the more certain I became, and now I am 100% sure.
Nevertheless, believing in God and being a Baha'i is anything but fun.
If my needs mattered, being a Baha'i would be the very last thing I need.
That is probably one reason why I tried to run away from it for most of my life.