Is it wrong to want to return home and leave this world

[Sees]

Particularly if you live in the concrete jungle of a city or large town.

Yep...it's like taking a fish from the ocean or sea and putting it in a small fish tank with artificial rocks and plants, crappy water, etc. - it won't feel right.

When you are walking next to a lake, amidst a bunch of trees, dipping your toes in a stream, laying on the grass and looking up at the sky- you will usually feel more at home and at peace. Add sharing stories face to face next to a fire rather than brief conversation (if that) with all the local strangers.

 

[Demonslayer]

do you feel like leaving this world as we know it ?.

You should watch the new Muppet Show. It will cheer you right up.

 

[The Hammer]

I have experienced so much in my life, I have experience my true SELF in Consciousness after many years of depression, I have been in situations where I was almost murdered, I was raped as a young man, I was shot by some stranger that I never knew. But I am happy for all this that happened in my life, for it made me grow and understand the human race.
I realize that the human race is full of ignorance, that they don't know what they are doing, as Jesus said as he was being crucified.

What I am trying to say is that do you ever come to a decision that, its time to leave this world, that there is nothing more to learn. I am not necessarily talking about suicide, I am more towards just simply going home. A home that is our true haven, a home that we all have felt deep inside, its that calling that we experience when we are alone and truly down in life.

Many times I cut myself, I like the blood that runs from my arms, I usually in up in the psycho ward which I love, when I am there I feel safe and sound.

Ever since I was a child I felt like this this, I always felt like an alien from another planet, and always had the urge to return home, so has any one else ever felt like this ?.

As long as you are still on this Earth, there are things for you to learn. You may think you have learned everything you need to know, but the fact that you are still here, proves that there is more for you to accomplish. Try to keep a positive outlook on the days, even when they seem to be at their darkest.

 

[Demonslayer]

 

[picnic]

Ever since I was a child I felt like this this, I always felt like an alien from another planet, and always had the urge to return home, so has any one else ever felt like this ?.

I've never felt like cutting myself, but I've always felt different and ostracized (somewhat). As long as I can remember, I have had urges to jump off of high places, etc.

Your description of feeling oneness when you were hospitalized for depression seems inconsistent with your urge to return home now. The oneness you felt should have told you that you are already home. You simply need to remember that oneness? You can't go home if the oneness is true, because everywhere is home and everybody is you.

 

[Father Heathen]

We should fight to make this whole world the "home" it should be.

 

[Twilight Hue]

I am not after sympathy, **** I'm been there and done that years ago, no, I am just asking in general, do you feel like leaving this world as we know it ?.

Personally I don't think we really ever arrived. ;0)

I'm just enjoying the sights and letting all the iffy stuff come and go as it may. Still fun and exciting things at times abound, so with that knowledge, l'm in no real hurry to find out the nature of any particular new set of issues if and when things do happen like they do in this existance.

 

[Mistah Bunneh]

Particularly if you live in the concrete jungle of a city or large town.

If you have too many rats in a cage they will eventually begin to eat each other, people seem no different and that is why I like to say many cities suffer from the "rat effect".

 

[Demonslayer]

If you have too many rats in a cage they will eventually begin to eat each other, people seem no different and that is why I like to say many cities suffer from the "rat effect".

Meh, I lived the first 25 years or so of my life in the country/small town setting and the last 15 or so in the city. I prefer the city. People who have never lived in a city often have these strange ideas like this...people feeding off of each other like rats, etc. The fact is there is every bit as much communuty in a city as there is the country.

The small town crap gets old after a while and you don't get that as much in the city. Everyone doesn't know your business all the time, etc.

But overall it's just a matter of preference. There are as many jerks in the country as there are in the city. Currently our main home is in the city of Boston and then we have a second home in extremely rural central Vermont. I love both places for different reasons. But this idea that the city is a bunch of rats in a cage is no more true that saying the country is just a bunch of toothless bumpkins. Neither idea is correct and both places offer great things the other doesn't.

 

[Aiviu]

I have experienced so much in my life, I have experience my true SELF in Consciousness after many years of depression, I have been in situations where I was almost murdered, I was raped as a young man, I was shot by some stranger that I never knew. But I am happy for all this that happened in my life, for it made me grow and understand the human race.
I realize that the human race is full of ignorance, that they don't know what they are doing, as Jesus said as he was being crucified.

What I am trying to say is that do you ever come to a decision that, its time to leave this world, that there is nothing more to learn. I am not necessarily talking about suicide, I am more towards just simply going home. A home that is our true haven, a home that we all have felt deep inside, its that calling that we experience when we are alone and truly down in life.

Many times I cut myself, I like the blood that runs from my arms, I usually in up in the psycho ward which I love, when I am there I feel safe and sound.

Ever since I was a child I felt like this this, I always felt like an alien from another planet, and always had the urge to return home, so has any one else ever felt like this ?.

The distance from me to home is the distance from me to my heart.

 

[sun rise]

To me, all humans have the urge to go home. Some feel it more strongly than others. I certainly feel that urge. My way of acting on it is to be of service to other people. When I can truly do that, I feel most clearly that I'm on my way home. And that service can be in the smallest things - a smile of understanding to a harried mother with a fussy child, for example. Or helping prepare items to help the very poor. Fixing up a garden so people are refreshed when they gaze at it or smell flowers perfume.

 

[Robert.Evans]

I have experienced so much in my life, I have experience my true SELF in Consciousness after many years of depression, I have been in situations where I was almost murdered, I was raped as a young man, I was shot by some stranger that I never knew. But I am happy for all this that happened in my life, for it made me grow and understand the human race.
I realize that the human race is full of ignorance, that they don't know what they are doing, as Jesus said as he was being crucified.

What I am trying to say is that do you ever come to a decision that, its time to leave this world, that there is nothing more to learn. I am not necessarily talking about suicide, I am more towards just simply going home. A home that is our true haven, a home that we all have felt deep inside, its that calling that we experience when we are alone and truly down in life.

Many times I cut myself, I like the blood that runs from my arms, I usually in up in the psycho ward which I love, when I am there I feel safe and sound.

Ever since I was a child I felt like this this, I always felt like an alien from another planet, and always had the urge to return home, so has any one else ever felt like this ?.

You sound like Paul who wished to leave and be with the lord but knew it was more beneficial to remain for those around him. Please don't cut yourself.
In answer to your question, yes.

 

[psychoslice]

yeah. I get this feeling most days. sort of like I've been sleep walking and am now starting to wake up. I wouldn't say I'm returning home, but certianly have had to re-invent myself a few times from the more I get to know myself better and keep changing. you can feel pretty lost sometimes and rootless.

Yes and really we are already home, its just the mind body organism and its conditioning that makes us feel were not home.

 

[psychoslice]

This is life, sometimes full of tears and sometimes full of laughs and we have always
to hope for a better tomorrow.

Yes and this is my tomorrow, and today I am laughing and so life goes on.

 

[psychoslice]

As long as you are still on this Earth, there are things for you to learn. You may think you have learned everything you need to know, but the fact that you are still here, proves that there is more for you to accomplish. Try to keep a positive outlook on the days, even when they seem to be at their darkest.

Yes yesterday is gone and its a new day, as the thunder storm clears, the sky is where it always was. an that is where I am now.

 

[psychoslice]

I've never felt like cutting myself, but I've always felt different and ostracized (somewhat). As long as I can remember, I have had urges to jump off of high places, etc.

Your description of feeling oneness when you were hospitalized for depression seems inconsistent with your urge to return home now. The oneness you felt should have told you that you are already home. You simply need to remember that oneness? You can't go home if the oneness is true, because everywhere is home and everybody is you.

Yes your so right, we are already that Oneness, we cannot be anything else, I just slipped and forgot lol.

 

[psychoslice]

Personally I don't think we really ever arrived. ;0)

I'm just enjoying the sights and letting all the iffy stuff come and go as it may. Still fun and exciting things at times abound, so with that knowledge, l'm in no real hurry to find out the nature of any particular new set of issues if and when things do happen like they do in this existance.

Yes, I am always pointing these things out to others, well it was my turn yesterday for others to point me into the right direction as you have done.

 

[psychoslice]

The distance from me to home is the distance from me to my heart.

It sure is, and its nice to be reminded, thanks.

 

[Harvey Meale]

I'm not sure what you could mean by going home that doesn't refer to suicide. But, IMO, suicide is perfectly fine and perhaps even logical for you. It doesn't have to carry the negative connotations it so commonly does. We shouldn't fear death but should be perfectly happy to go at any point. That said, it's not something I'd force unless absolutely necessary. Accept death for it may come at any time, but this certainly doesn't mean you should run toward it to escape whatever turmoil you're going through.

 

[Unification]

I have experienced so much in my life, I have experience my true SELF in Consciousness after many years of depression, I have been in situations where I was almost murdered, I was raped as a young man, I was shot by some stranger that I never knew. But I am happy for all this that happened in my life, for it made me grow and understand the human race.
I realize that the human race is full of ignorance, that they don't know what they are doing, as Jesus said as he was being crucified.

What I am trying to say is that do you ever come to a decision that, its time to leave this world, that there is nothing more to learn. I am not necessarily talking about suicide, I am more towards just simply going home. A home that is our true haven, a home that we all have felt deep inside, its that calling that we experience when we are alone and truly down in life.

Many times I cut myself, I like the blood that runs from my arms, I usually in up in the psycho ward which I love, when I am there I feel safe and sound.

Ever since I was a child I felt like this this, I always felt like an alien from another planet, and always had the urge to return home, so has any one else ever felt like this ?.

That is real stuff there.

I understand, friend . . have always felt alienated and not belonging.

May I ask why you feel like an alien? Is it the world around you?