How would Zen see and handle your dilemma?
Firstly, Zen would ask: 'Who is it that is asking God for an answer'. On its surface, this may sound rather silly, but if you really look, you will find that there is no such questioner. This provides some of the solution, but it won't be easy. The fictional self hangs on tight. It doesn't want to die or to be found out. Secondly, That which you are asking the question of is actually you. This is not to say that God is not real, but rather that you are projecting an external image of God onto some idea of 'other', and that the something you seek is not how you imagine it to be. Thirdly, in the final analysis, you will find that what you seek is actually yourself; that you are the object of your seeking; that you are none other than the divine nature itself, and when I say that, I do not mean the 'you' or 'I' that is the ego, or the self; I mean a presence beyond the self. Zennists call this presence 'Big Mind', but in order for it to come into play, the constant and incessant chatter of the thinking mind, called 'monkey mind', must first be subdued. This monkey mind is the one which keeps asking an external image questions and expecting an answer. Big Mind is intuitive, so you have to pay attention, not via more thinking, but via simple awareness of what is. Once you begin to get a clearer idea of your true nature, seeing into the nature of things will show you the way, and will provide answers which really were there all along. The great yogi, Patanjali, said: 'Yoga (divine union) is the cessation of all of the activities of the mind'. Quiet the mind, and allow yourself to merge with the greater presence that is always at hand. Stop making God an object to which you pose questions as a subject. God is giving you the answer you seek plain as day, but you are not looking in the right place.