Sooo... A few days ago, I went to Paris Vinayaka mandir
( It does not happen often, as I live 7h away from the temple... And there aren't many temples in France unfortunately)
Helped and joined the puja, then stayed a bit to pray to Sri GaneshJi and .... Mata Saraswati.
Faced a year of joblessness despite my efforts and skills, the videogame industry being really, really difficult to enter. I had to go back living with my parents, and living with short term jobs and minimum pay, which was a double horrible thing since I had to face the daily verbal and emotionnal harassement from my mother (Because my other half is transsexual) and couldn't even contribute to the family budget.
One day I saw a lot of opening from the governement. They were recruiting teachers... So I considered the question. I was already offered to work as a conference master at the Louvre at 17, but turned it down to pursue my dream of being a videogame artist... Now for the second time, a teaching opportunity was here, so I took it. Since I already had a master degree, I just had to pass a year, and succeed at the big national exam.
Needless to say, this past year have been an horror.
Had to move in one day to another city, I had to squat an empty university building and to do my homework on the floor, then almost ended up homeless before miraculously finding a room... Had to struggle to pay the rent, working overnight while trying to keep up with the insane level of knowledge the school asked. Spent a year completely alone at school, cast out by pretty much everyone in my class because I was "different" (understand: not a superficial feminine generic girl that only swears by clothes and expensive shopping - I hate those things - )
Spent most of the end of the year crying while eating flour mixed with water, as it was the only thing I could afford.
I successfully passed the writing national exam, a miracle. I was confident for the 3 interviews exams that were coming after that... The places were limited, there was a lot of people still in the race.
Thought I magistrally failed the most important of them. I cried a lot, started to doubt my chances, started to despair as I didn't wanted to come back living home, without a job, like a shame.
So went to the mandir, and started praying. I told Maa everything I held inside my heart, all the doubts, suffering, exhaustion, and everything that this success could bring. I gave to Maa the last, tiny little spark of hope that was still inside of me, as a sacrifice, and I left the temple empty.
Today, the results are in, and I had great results as well as I succeeded graduating my (second !) master degree ! I am officially a teacher (and a 3D artist)
I come to share the joy at our ashram, and I bow a thousand times to beloved Sri GaneshJi and Mata Saraswati ! It is finally the end of this horrible ordeal and I can't stop being so grateful ! I gave a spark of hope to the Gods, they made it a huge fire in my chest !
Next step is to settle near Paris (NEAR THE TEMPLE <3 FINALLY !) and start to live a life. A real life !
JAI VINAYAKAJI JAI MATA SARASWATI ! HAR HAR MAHADEV !
Hi JayaBholenath,
Congratulations and I'm very happy for you.All the best.
Hara Hara Mahadev!
Yay! I'm still working on reading it myself.
Congratulations, and Jai Ganesha! Jai Maa Saraswati!
Also, I love how people's posts on RF often end up coinciding with something I was planning on posting myself.
I'd been letting my usual worship slip over the past several weeks, and just last week decided I didn't need to keep doing that. Mother's been too good to me to stop thanking her for all that She's done. I'd been feeling distant from all the gods, though, and wasn't sure what I needed to do to fix it. So I made up my mind to start doing daily puja again.
Up until very recently, my only real "worship" of Ganesha was a quick "namaha" in His direction before a puja (if I remembered). I'd just never felt much of a pull toward him. But because I was kinda stuck in this slump, I figured I should try to do more than that for Him because what do I have to lose, right? Surely the people who have advocated the worship of Ganesha throughout the ages knew more about it than I do.
So I started incorporating a quick Ganesha puja before my "main" puja, and I've also begun worshipping Mother Saraswati in her Matangi form as well as her Saraswati form.
I mention this because I'm a writer, and I've been lacking both inspiration and motivation for quite some time now. But after starting to have brief Ganesha pujas and renewing my worship of Saraswati, the inspiration has been coming back. I admit that I still don't feel terribly close to Ganesha, but He's clearly been helping me, anyway, so you won't hear me complaining.
Sri Ganesha is one of the central deities of Shaiva Sampradaya and he is considered to be a manifestation of Lord Shiva and Goddess Parvati combined.
There is a nice book on Ganapati by Sri Sivaya Subramuniyaswami available online. http://himalayanacademy.com/view/loving-ganesha