Im a gay christian. I ignore what any pastor says. I ignore what my father said. I ignore what the world says. Do that and you'll begin to see the truth xP
Man has been engaging sexually with other men since our conception. Only today has society turned it into a 'Minority Group' for a dam near electoral vote. It's turned from an act to a lifestyle. Its RIDICULOUS. I'ts sad. It is what it is, however.
Now, in reference to my perception of Christianity through my eyes as a 'gay' male, I tell myself that I have a choice to either conform to what the world says and indulge in this role as a 'gay' male, or I can realize the truth that it is dam near normal for men to want to sexually engage with other men, to overcome it, and live a simple 'heterosexual lifestyle'. I on the other hand made a choice to not fight a battle that 'has already been won', that if my path in life, the life of a present day gay male, is what I choose, then God simply has to deal with it =) But... I know God is loving, and has arms as wide as any, and therefore I chose to believe that He would/will use me to reach other gay males out there that A) need my help, or B) can help me. And 'God' has done just that =) Ive met gay males, especially during my 'whorish' phase that redirected me to a better path, and hes also thrown other gay males/lovers/companions in my life that have benefited from me to which I returned the favor. God has become an idol, to a companion, to an enemy, to m best friend. Our relationship (if he exists -.-) is quite complicated xP Especially when I look up with desire in my heart 0-0 because theres been things he made me suffer for' for years, only to find that one day it was given to me like nothing.. then to find soon after it was stripped away from me. I dont know if anyone here knows what its like to suffer over something youv've lacked FOR SO LONG, only to one day find yourself with it, as you indulge in it, sin, indulge some more, then suddenly find it stripped from you like it was nothing. You want to talk about being mentally trapped? You want to talk about mentally experiencing hell? That is hell =) Been there and back, but through it all, as a gay male, I NEVER stopped looking up. God has served his purpose in my life whether he really is real or not. His existence in my mind has gotten me through what I found many people commit suicide over.
My BEST advice to other gay males out there battling God or their religion/loved ones over the fact that your identifier is being gay, IGNORE words. Ignore them. Ignore your Pastor talking out of his butt, Ignore your family who are unwise depending on their views on homosexuality, and most importantly.. Ignore the world.