firedragon
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What lies are we thinking of though when it was said that some are liars. Was the thought that on some websites or even in videos and interviews people lie about their past and their religions and their leaving religions and conversions to other things? I've seen a lot of very fake "I've left Islam" Christian type videos which seem a lot less genuine than some "I've joined Islam" types of videos. I've seen lots of fake seeming "I've become a Christian" type videos, and a lot of genuine or sincere seeming ones as well. Some of the features which make a thing look suspect to me are the way they are speaking and acting, the voice and tones and dialogue, the way they hold their eyes, their animosity towards the religions, the slickness and quality and production values. Lots of factors. On a forum, one could never know to what degree someone is telling the truth in their text, but I come off for example as a very genuine person probably and I aim for casual authenticity in my style, whereas a very polished type almost prepared statement look and style to the text gives the impression of some agenda, or some trolls come on and appear to be trolls based on their behavior and text style or incessant obnoxiousness which amounts to hammy performances and "bad acting" for whatever they are trying to pose as, or that they are just aimless bullies trying to get a kick out of people's reactions or something.
I think it is actually some kind of mental disorder when people go around doing that sort of thing. I also think true Christians would never lie and deceive, and the ones who do it are some kind of worldly politicized villains and I hope they roast for it (and whoever does it, not just so-called Christian agenda liars).
All the Bahai on this website, as far as I can tell, are sincere people, giving me the impression of being good people. Actually, the vast majority of people on this website come off to me as actually genuinely decent, kind-hearted, nice, and honest people.
Out of all the people on this website, I think I'm probably the most open, sincere, and free from any covert agenda that I'm not willing to disclose. When I ask questions, like I am doing here in this thread, these are things that actually bother me for real, and what bothers me for real is why:
Why! Why do we select some things, find some things acceptable to select and follow, and find other things unacceptable. It seriously bothers me. Like, why am I so totally blocked from any of this Bahai stuff. It must be the same as a person who feels so totally blocked from the Islam stuff, or from God stuff at all, its the same sort of block, this is an amazing experience, to feel it, to feel what it is really like probably to be like an Atheist or a Christian or Jew who strongly dislikes or is blocked from Islam, I can feel that same sort of feeling when I read this Bahai stuff, its so blocked, and in a way it makes me feel sick that I am like that, that I can't even be opened to it, not even in the slightest, like what the heck is wrong with me? This is what I'm begging you all to help me with and help me understand, because it bothers me, everything I ever bring up in this forum or any forum, it leads up to something real, something that actually concerns me or disturbs me, even if it isn't obvious at first, I don't want to be just blindly closed off to something right from the get-go for no reason, its unfair, but its REAL, its HAPPENING, and I'd be a liar to deny it.
Can anyone give it a shot or a few shots as to why they think this is the case?
Why do we each all believe something, deny other things, is it just how we were brought up? So many people reject the things they were told or believed when they were younger or how they were brought up to believe though, so maybe its not that at all.
Why do I think Joseph Smith and Baha'u'llah are not the same as Moses or Muhammed? Well one thing might be that very little is actually known about the real Moses or Muhammed due to their far away existence in the foggy mists of times long past. Joseph and Baha'u'llah were both people who seemingly made extraordinary claims, and after a certain point, and the content they produced is not to my tastes, and both had their lives ended, while Moses and Muhammed seemed to succeed, were credited as bringing down tremendous books which have ultimately had enormous influence on the world, and they were not slain (but cut everyone else's necks successfully). Based on the Qur'anic versions of these character, I love them a lot, they are both depicted as basically dim-witted simpleton scaredy-cats and I love characters like that, they are lovable because they don't pretend to be sages, but are instead cowardly goons. I can relate, I myself am a simpleton, a cowardly goon, in awe of the power of nature and the weird things I notice, and this is the way the Qur'an seems to make these characters out to be. They are also nobodies, orphans basically, who had circumstances come up which put them in certain weird positions to end up staging highly unlikely projects which saved a people or changed the world at large forever.
I like the Qur'an's version of every single character it mentions, even the villains, they are some of the most entertaining characters, dialogue, internal dialogue or thoughts and reactions, I am so pleased with the book, even as a story book or literature. I feel the deepest disgust and aversion towards the Biblical version of all the same, and the reaction is visceral and violent, it fills me with rage and intense hot sadness and hot tears with how disturbed the Bible makes me, and that is probably because of how its like some kind of alternate version (older and original) to the Qur'an which makes all the characters I love and prefer so much, just the worst people on Earth in my view, yuck central. I strongly abhor the Hadith literature also, for their blessed spitting Metro Muhammed sans pubic hairs, I don't believe a word of it, probably because it doesn't mesh with what I've loved about my interpretation of the Qur'anic version of his character, and so it seems I just believe whatever the heck I want to believe, and what I hate, I don't believe at all.
They say "be opened", and I don't know how to do this, especially when accepting some of these things feels almost like death or accepting poison and destroying everything I have built up in my mind, everything I actually enjoy, and even abandoning all the characters I really love and relate to, in exchange for these totally annoying people I seem to be able to do nothing but actually despise.
How can I remove the hatred in my heart for these "Sage" type characters? How can I, like my fellow monks, monkeys, aces, and apes before me, come to admire and love characters who are annoying "Wise Willing Sages" instead of the "Cowardly Unwilling Simpletons" that I prefer as my Brothers in Awe?
What scholarly work have you read up on Muhammed and his life? I am not referring to Ibn Hisham but modern scholarly work with a historical approach.