I don’t really want to get into personalities here for that’s not what forums are about, but we are very clearly looking at an obsession when you say ‘it is in your mind day and night’, and I think it’s fair to say the assessment is supported by the enormous number of posts, repeating the same thing, and time spent seeking and copying statements and articles from other sources to bolster and reinforce the beliefs. There can be no doubt that your faith has huge emotional importance for you. Now I can’t pretend to be an expert in the psychology of belief-as-faith but I’m aware that in these extreme cases an individual will never, ever, be disabused of the idea, and opposing arguments are countered by the simple expedient of nothing being allowed to count against the stated belief.
But be that as it may there is an old adage that, despite its painfully illogical form, also has a compelling ring of truth: ‘The more that is claimed for a thing, the more impossible it becomes.’ Unfounded claims and assertions, repeated ad infinitum, damage the credibility of the advocate’s argument and have the appearance of blind dogma. Reading between the lines, I believe I can say with confidence that you’ve not experienced this supposed state, and even if you think you had – and you’ve already shown that this is simply unanswerable: you’ve no way of knowing it wasn’t an illusion. Also there is another aspect of your argument that is misleading, or even plain false, and that is where you maintain that due to our worldly experience or ‘social indoctrination’ this conditioning constrains or obstructs the accessibility of other knowledge, information, or whatever else you want to call it. This implies, misleadingly, that knowledge is always subject to the twin strains of analysis and will and that we are productively selective in our understanding. That is not so. In dreams, for example, ideas present themselves to me whether I will them or not, and nor do they beg my understanding and rational acceptance. If in a dream a new mathematical truth came to me, even if it was beyond my comprehension or intellectual capacity, it would for all that be no less true. So what I’m saying here is that if something can be demonstrably true, independent of my willingness to believe it, then my selective or conditioned understanding imposes no necessity upon what is certain. But humans are receptive to all forms of experience and knowledge, and it is only the religionists and mystics that claim certainty without ever being able to show, even to their own satisfaction it would seem, that what is believed from faith is actually true.