Ain't that the truth! I'm sorry for your condition. I've been depressed off and on for years. Tried the meds, but didn't stick with them because they really weren't working, or else they had negative effects that were worse than the depression. Instead, I worked on the underlying issues.
I also went down the path with various antidepressants, from 1983-1988, and I was only able to stay above the depression enough to keep my job but I was still depressed. Then I ran into a Baha'i who had had disabling manic depression all his life who had recovered completely by going for homeopathic treatment, so I went to his doctor and within a month I was off of the antidepressant I had been on and I was not depressed at all. I never took any drugs after that but I was in counseling and 12 step programs for many years during the course of my recovery.
I consider homeopathy a miracle, but I had to continue with this medicine for 10 years in order to be completely cured since my disease had many layers. But I was never clinically depressed again after that. I also have Generalized Anxiety Disorder but that was cured as well and now I am only anxious about a few things that I believe warrant anxiety.
I have PTSD from the sudden death of my father when I was 12 years old for which I got no counseling at that time, and the PTSD rears its ugly head off and on whenever I have a grief reaction from so many losses of my beloved cats. If I had never had any cats, my whole life would have been different, much easier, but there is no way to know if I would have been happier, because the cats are the primary source of happiness for me, that and the Baha'i Faith. The grief I undergo when one dies is almost unbearable, and it is so much worse if I feel responsible thus guilty about it, but the pain has gotten easier to endure over the years, since I started to turn to God. It also helps me a lot because I have other people to talk to on forums; not about the cats but about other things, because I do not think anyone but God can understand how I feel about the cats.
The forums help me because they take my mind off my own suffering because I am focused on other people. What helps me most is if I can help others, but unfortunately for me I tend to overextend myself.
This "theology" is a work in progress; I don't pretend to have all the answers.
Ain't that the truth.
Predestination and free will is a quagmire of astronomical proportions.
I have been discussing that with Nimos on another thread. He is an atheist who is very astute and he straightened me out about free will recently.
Hmm... I 'm not sure I agree. I guess I keep thinking about people I know who've become handicapped and are in wheelchairs. I know some who just gave up, became identified as "crippled" and stopped living. I'd say they're "choosing to suffer." I know some who have dealt realistically with their condition, and have not become identified as "crippled," and who live very full lives. I would say that they do not suffer. That's what I was talking about. I don't know how that fits with conditions like chronic and acute depression. It seems like we tend to equate non-suffering with happiness, and I'm not sure that's correct. I think it's worth exploring from several angles.
I know what you mean about disabled people in wheelchairs, even paraplegics, because I used to ride the city bus to work and there were so many of them who were so upbeat and cheerful. Then of course there are people who are not this way, people who feel sorry for themselves, but I think we need to look at the whole picture in order to understand why. Not only do people have very different childhoods, but they also have different hereditary disposition.
Both my parents had depression and anxiety, and my only sister and brother were depressed and anxious, so I have genetic predisposition to be depressed and anxious. Add to that that I did not get what I needed emotionally growing up, and it was a recipe for disaster. There are counselors who have told me it is a miracle I survived. I might have survived even without the homeopathy but I doubt I would have ever uncovered my deep-seated issues or recovered from the depression and anxiety.
So what I am saying is that since we cannot know all the factors that play into what makes a person who they are --
childhood upbringing, heredity, education, adult experiences, and present life circumstances -- I do not think we can judge them and know why they cannot overcome their suffering, or depression.
Then of course there is the spiritual element which I believe is separate from the psychological element, although the two affect each other. Until I had God on board I suffered a lot more from my grief reactions, but that is a long sad story. I still have issues with God but i am working on them. in that regard, other religious people can help me, maybe even someone such as yourself who has the training. I understand the issues I have but understanding does not always make the feelings go away. I might not share all the Christian beliefs, but I look to Christians as a source of faith since most Christians (who are not Christians in name only) have a strong faith in God. Baha'is also do but it is different because most of them are so busy with activities focused on building the new world order, so they are focused outward on societal issues much of the time.
Here's a thought: what if suffering is "a lack of wholeness or of feeling whole?" Apparently, one can lack limbs and still be whole. Can one be depressed and still identify as "whole" and retain some sense of well-being? Is a lack of wholeness a root cause of depression?
I think wholeness is mostly related to the spiritual dimension but it might have a psychological component as well.
The root cause of depression I think is going to be very different for every person, although there might be some commonalities. If the depression is genetic (endogenous) that could be a cause, which is very different from depression that is owing to childhood upbringing or present life circumstances. These have to be addressed differently.
Sometimes life circumstances cannot be changed in which case one has to learn to think about them differently, until they can be changed, if that is even possible. I went through that for many years with a job and income loss and am still in it with the cats and my husband. I just try to do the best I can under difficult circumstances as look at all the other things I have to be grateful for.
Meanwhile, I know what my psychological and spiritual battles are and I continue to fight them.