Then maybe you missed what i was saying....
Yeshua within the synoptic gospels (see together as one), is overall a matching character; what we find within the gospel of John isn't his words or teachings (no parables), repeated use of 'I Am', and has numerous contradictions Vs the synoptic gospels.
Many people recognize Paul contradicts Yeshua's words, like almost half this forum seems to be aware, except for Christians who are following Paul, and not Yeshua.
So maybe it does sound like a cult to go back to the words and teachings of Yeshua, not some imposters, putting forward Pharisaic Hellenistic Gnostic ideas.
Yeshua said
not to expect grace; yet Paul made his whole ideology rest upon it.
Here is a list of
where Paul contradicts Christ, and there are loads more websites with lists if you look.