I'm struggling with this one. Because I feel that he's calling me for something, but I'm afraid it's the priesthood. Because I'm engaged, and we are moving into our first house next month.
Vigil....
I do hate to point this out,
but if you are living in sin with your girlfriend...
you are COMPOUNDING that sin ...
(double mortal sin?),
by participating in the act of recieving of the eucharist.
(communion)
(of course maybe you are not actually partaking.)
These are not my rules BTW...
and as I am no longer a churchgoer of any kind,
I
personally couldn't care less anymore what the "rules" are...
(as it is with thousands and thousands
of catholics partaking of communion in a state of "mortal sin".)
It's just that that sort of life comes with an awful lot of rules.
Rules of order that must be upheld in obedience.
What happens then when you outgrow the rules?
Or they no longer suit you?
Ugh. I'm very sad for you , to hear of this situation with your girlfriend.
I would be a liar to say anything else.
If you ever want to talk with me privately,
I tell you the RC, and the Eucharist was my WHOLE LIFE,
I was the ONLY woman in the whole church with a veil over my head.
Daily mass.. adoration... the whole thing.
I in no way mean to diminish your recent experience,
as I myself had many
real experiences in that season of my life.
but marriage, and priesthood are not meant to last only for a season.
If for any reason you ever want to speak with me,
if only as a small part of your discernment,
just send me off a PM. ok?
I have no agenda. really.
Just a soft spot in my heart,
and a story worth hearing.
Stacey.