Life as a whole. The grass, trees, animals, people, everything as a whole. We only hold meaning and purpose to the world around us, like I said. The purpose I give my life may be to fix computers, do surgery, etc. But whatever my purpose may be, it is only valid to the world around me. And on the other side, you might say my purpose right now is to make you look like an idiot by pointing out that you don't actually address any of my points even though they are there nice and neat for you to absorb and understand. So, as you see, your meaning and purpose can change also completely change in context to where you are, and who you are around. I make my own meaning in life, and am pretty happy with it. Enough people appreciate me and the things I do to give my life more of a personal meaning, which is all we can hope for anyway. There are those who achieve greater meaning to the world, such as inventing something great, or even assassinating somebody famous. But even in such instances, they are all only relevant to the world around us.
As far as me crying and not being able to handle it; you made that accusation, so the burden of proof is on you to prove that I am, not that I'm not. And I already said I am very content and happy with my life, and the people and world around me.