I was anti-religious for a while after I renounced my Christian faith because of all the years of negativity I experienced when I was a Christian. I was still feeling it when I first joined RF, but being part of this diverse online community had a significant impact on my decision to practice Wicca and druidry.
But beforehand, I had a short-lived interest in the Baha'i Faith after reading some posts about it, but upon further observation, I could see that its beliefs are very similar to those of Christianity, so I rejected it. It wasn't long after this that I came across some posts about Wicca and other pagan religions that piqued my interest. So I started to research Wicca, and I felt drawn to it. To make a long story short, being a Wiccan has been a very positive experience for me spiritually, and it has helped me heal emotionally. It inspired me to look into other pagan religions, which led me to polytheism and eventually to druidry. I practice spiritualism as well, but my decision was influenced by the spiritual guidance and personal example of my close friend and mentor.
I have no qualms in saying that I'm grateful to be free from what I consider to be the entrapment of Christianity because it was a dreadful way of life for me. I truly believe that being a Christian can be detrimental to a person's mental health and emotional well-being. It certainly was for mine, and it was for the many other former Christians I know. To be quite honest, renouncing my Christian faith and belief in God has brought me a lot of comfort because I am no longer scared of what I believe to be the fearmongering tactics of Christianity, such as being afraid and feeling shame for allegedly sinning against God, fear of his wrath, and fear of going to hell. I can say without a second thought that being a Christian was a living nightmare for me, whereas being a Wiccan and druid has been liberating and a very positive experience. It's better for my mental health and emotional well-being. My life is far less stressful than it was when I was a Christian. I take it one day at a time, and I'm not gung-ho about Wicca, druidry, or spiritualism. I keep my beliefs in perspective.
It was a gradual process of detoxing from a lifetime of Christian indoctrination, but I've finally experienced inner peace in my life, which is something I never experienced as a Christian. I learned to let go of the fears I had, such as fearing God, fearing sinning against God, and my fear of going to hell. And once I did that, my mental health and emotional well-being significantly improved. I was deeply indoctrinated in Christianity, so it was difficult for me to be freed of it. I felt trapped in it, so I was shackled in emotional bondage to it for the majority of my life. Christianity was a prison for me. I felt like I was imprisoned, but only my prison cell door was always open, and it took me a long time to realize that I could leave whenever I wanted to. I never once felt "freedom in Christ" or genuine peace in my life as a Christian, as other Christians claimed to experience in theirs. So I freed myself from the indoctrination that I had been subjected to after spending the majority of my life trapped in it. I feel no more shame for allegedly sinning against God or for allowing myself to be guilt-tripped by Christians accusing me of being a sinner, and I no longer fear any alleged wrath or judgment from God or fear going to hell.
As a Wiccan and druid, I don't feel pressured to obey or appease any particular god, nor do I feel threatened by any god. Other than saving myself from abuse when I was a teenager, I cannot think of anything more empowering than finally understanding that I don't have to believe in the biblical God or follow Christianity or any other deity or religion in order to feel emotionally whole or make moral decisions in my life. I maintain a rational perspective on my present spiritual beliefs so as to avoid repeating these mistakes. I'm well aware of the potential emotional downfalls I could face from overly trusting in spiritual beliefs or in any god (or other deities). My beliefs are important to me, but not to the extent that I rely on them or that I feel like I can't make a moral decision without them. I don't regret my decision to renounce my belief in God and faith in Jesus, as well as leaving Christianity, but I wish that I had found the strength to do so years ago rather than holding onto the false hope and trust that I had in God. It would have been much better for me if I had.