"I am" was neither Jesus or the Father. Jesus always referred to himself as the "son" and God as "our/the Father". You take "i am" once in the OT and once in "John" and make a false connection of two words. How many times did Jesus say that he "was" I am. None. He didn't say "before Abraham was, I was", then that would mean he "was" and not "is".
"I am" brought destruction and murder. The Father and Son brought neither.
You "want" to live in ignorance of Spirit. What little truth the Jews had, was taken from them and given to the world. Christianity was a path to save the world, while Judaism was the Jews religion to save the Jews.
John 7:
34 Ye shall seek me, and shall not find me: and where I am, thither ye cannot come.
35 Then said the Jews among themselves, Whither will he go, that we shall not find him? will he go unto the dispersed among the Gentiles, and teach the Gentiles?
36 What manner of saying is this that he said, Ye shall seek me, and shall not find me: and where I am, thither ye cannot come?
You just don't see that it. You move yourself back into the Judaism that will never find Christ. You seek him, you think you know who he is, (a fleshly storybook character).
Galatians 1:
11 But I certify you, brethren, that the gospel which was preached of me is not after man.
12 For I neither received it of man, neither was I taught it, but by the revelation of Jesus Christ.
13 For ye have heard of my conversation in time past in the Jews' religion, how that beyond measure I persecuted the church of God, and wasted it:
14 And profited in the Jews' religion above many my equals in mine own nation, being more exceedingly zealous of the traditions of my fathers.
15 But when it pleased God, who separated me from my mother's womb, and called me by his grace,
16 To reveal his Son in me, that I might preach him among the heathen; immediately I conferred not with flesh and blood:
Until you separate yourself yourself from your mothers womb, you are of the flesh, and the Spirit evades you.
Paul left the Jews to teach to the heathen (Gentiles) as the Spirit of God revealed Christ within him.
The Jews are gone. Judaism is gone. The OT is gone. Only Christ is truth. To go backward, is to enter the womb (flesh), not be free, and not find the Son. Leaving the Gospel to believe in the OT is spiritual suicide. There is nothing there of value. The Father never spoke to anyone and the Holy Spirit hadn't been given. That's Jesus words, not mine.