[Here are my comments to your words (in bold), hopefully not offensive again.]
You assume quite a bit if you are referring to the Christian heaven many of us not only believe in but are quite certain of. For one, we will have bodies, very much so. For two, to think some might find heaven maddening is absurd, IMO, and quite insulting to God. Three, you really are holding out not saying whether you are certain there is an afterlife or not, or why you think some may obtain it (immortality) and why some may not. In other words, your personal revelations do not appear to have sold you (or us) on anything much?
Also I should note that "convincing others of the truth" would probably be considered to be trying to convert people, which is against rule 8.
Why do you even bother to make mention of this? It does not cast you in a better or more confident light. How does one debate religion as you called it above without the chance that one may consider and possibly become convinced of anothers points of view? And all of a sudden something terrible has taken place? Then I suggest no one read any comments on a religion boDISCALIMER: Real rape is, well, very bad. Rape fantasies are FANTASY, not the real thing, and having a rape fantasy does not mean you actually want to rape someone, according to all the studies I read on it at least.
I'm curious who else might have this, and what you first made of it when you discovered it. I don't have a full-blown fetish for it, but a really strong kink.ard if they are afraid they are being violated.
Also the "danger" of my religion, if any, isn't attributed to anything I would call "real" Satanism.
Well, one is left to guess a lot about you. If you choose to remain aloof that is certainly your prerogative, but it does stifle debate or interest.
On the other hand, I see that you signed some manifesto or whatever you would call that red and black box with all the satanic vows or themes on 6/27/12. I would not want to begin to speculate what that is all about. But I will say this: there is nothing on this earth worth having if it means sacrificing oneself to another direction in the next life.
1. I wasn't talking about Heaven, but the surviving souls of physically dead people, residing HERE, on Earth.
2. I'll refrain from that then as it's not my place I guess.
3. It's not a manifesto. Also there is only two "vows" on there that I have done, and one was just basically saying "ok I'm not a Christian anymore and won't ever be again", but even that was to emotionally reinforce that I was intellectually over Christianity. The only true oath I have ever made was that so long as I am loyal to Satan, I shall not "cut the hair from atop my head".
The "Satanic theme" is not actually Satanic. The red stuff is actually marks from a bubble chamber... basically a container filled with liquid hydrogen and electrons fired through, exciting the liquid hydrogen into turning into a gas. The red indicates where the electrons passed through, and is in false-color. This is another example of a bubble chamber:
http://www.visualphotos.com/photo/1x6036908/false-colour_bubble_chamber_photo_a138009.jpg
Then ontop of that is a unicursal 5 pointed star, inverted, but with the five points of the pentagon connected with lines that not only make a right-side-up 5 pointed star, but also that penetrate the outer circle. As well all of that is bisected, and I fit the larger star ontop of the circle the electrons made in the middle. Then I slapped the equation for entropy down there. More than anything, it's a mix of a vague sigil and science references, mostly because I'm a pantheist. It's not explicitly Satanic.
The sigil itself represents my path as I see it. The Circle is the Universe, in which my soul, made up of five distinct parts (hence the outer star), can create a greater internal reality that will not only pierce into the Universe, but go outwards from it. That is, I can create a
de facto god by making my soul survive not only my physical death, but the eventual heat death of the Universe by separating from The Universe, and therefore, God. One cannot be with God if they remain part of God, as when The Universe dies, that's it, he's folding back on himself.
All the other stats I update regularly, and that date was just the most recent, I basically am recording my magic(k)al experience for people to see. It's mostly just the kind of rituals I have done anyway, and I don't see how white text on black is explicitly Satanic.
Also I've never done anything insane like you seem to potentially think, it's mostly pointing a knife at a symbol while saying a bunch of stuff, and feeling all different inside. Oh, and if you know how to do it, you can come out with some kind of emotional or spiritual transformation. Though cursing your enemies are helping your friends is nice too, but much harder to pull off.