Frank's journal of whatever

[Saint Frankenstein]

I was born premature too! Im a Taurus born May 2nd. I was a twin. It's common for twins to be preemies. Anyway...i tried to be born feet first. Basically i didn't just wanted out... I decided to kill everyone in the process. Luckily was unsuccessful and mom had C-section

I was a C-section, too! I had to be born that way or both my mom and I would've likely died. She had fibroid tumors in her uterus that were surgically removed a few years before I was conceived, so it was a very risky pregnancy. She actually almost died during that surgery and even had an NDE. She almost lost me a few times. But she was determined to have one more child.

 

[JustGeorge]

Yes. I was supposed to be a Libra but I was born a month premature. I wanted out. Lol

Being a Libra sucks.

I'm Libra, sun/moon/ascendant. There's so much Libra in me I've become unbalanced.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Being a Libra sucks.

I'm Libra, sun/moon/ascendant. There's so much Libra in me I've become unbalanced.

Lol. I'm a bit all over the place. My moon is in Taurus and my ascendent is Scorpio. Honestly, I'll trade you the Scorpio for the Taurus stuff. My Venus is in Scorpio, too, and I don't want that anymore. Lol

 

[JustGeorge]

Lol. I'm a bit all over the place. My moon is in Taurus and my ascendent is Scorpio. Honestly, I'll trade you the Scorpio for the Taurus stuff. My Venus is in Scorpio, too, and I don't want that anymore. Lol

What do you find you don't like about the Scorpio?

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

What do you find you don't like about the Scorpio?

Too emotionally intense. It's like I'm the stereotype of a Scorpio in relationships to a T - passionate, jealous and possessive. That's part of the reason why I stay away from them. There's never a dull moment, though.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Another horrible day, and it's not even noon yet. I didn't get my $120 utility credit, which should be here by now. It comes on a card, so they have no excuse as the banks are processing things again. So I have no clue when that's coming and my bills are coming up. I threw a fit over it and a neighbor heard me through the walls, which is really embarrassing. She offered me $50 when she comes back from the store, which is nice (I tried to refuse it as I know she's struggling, too), but I'm not happy about it.

Then my probation officer comes over for his once in 4/5 month visit and I catch him up on all the horror that is my life. Even he was a bit taken aback and I had to think hard to come up with anything positive to say.

Then I'm off to the bus stop to try and go to therapy. I haven't been to therapy in 4 weeks now. But the bus never shows up. It was either early or really late. I missed therapy last week because my therapist wasn't in the office and I was on the bus when I saw his message to me (I don't have phone service so my phone is Wifi only). Wasted bus fare.

I'm really angry at these organizations for not helping me more. Southeast, my health clinic, needs to be doing a lot more. I am really being failed and they don't give a damn. Like, why should I have to pay at all for my meds? They're publicly funded and the meds are generic! A lot of their clients are homeless! It needs to be free! And why I don't have a bus pass from them! I'm still spending money on the bus! Last time I was there, the guy in front of me in line was irate over something and threatened to sue! Maybe we should file one together!

I don't really know what to say anymore. Why get out of bed, why leave the apartment. Why hope and pray. I'm going to get anywhere until these organizations actually do their ****ing jobs.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Well, the utility credit showed up, thankfully. If it didn't, I wasn't looking forward to dealing with the housing authority people again. Going to that place is like going to a gulag, they're so strict and mean. They actually threaten to cancel your housing voucher if you come up to the window to ask a question.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

All I know is that things are not working out for me at my healthcare center. My meds seemed to have gone up in price and I feel like my pharmacy is ripping me off. They overcharged me the other week, as well. They said they voided the charge but it went through. (I've learned that pretty much no one does actual refunds now, they just lie and say it's coming but the money never goes back.) Gotta love getting ripped by a publicly funded pharmacy for the poor. I'm so angry at them.

Now Job and Family Services is playing games, saying that the system is saying I still work at Kroger! What! I was removed from their system in May! Now they say I should go to Kroger and have them write a letter for me. Screw that. I'm going to get on the phone and complain. Their system is broken and giving them wrong information. They have errors in their system. I am not going back to that store and going through this crap again.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Great, now I'm being told I must have a letter. I give up...I've already given up. I've been severely depressed and thinking of doing a certain thing for a bit now.

I'm honestly irate. This country is a joke. They don't want to help.

 

[Kathryn]

I got an actual refund last week from Hertz. Amazing. I am still dealing though with healthcare.gov and Medical Mutual, who sent me about six invoices with everything from credits to owing them nearly $2000 but when I called them - again - they gave me some amount that is not anywhere on anything and they keep trying to say that I owe them for the entire month of April, but I DO NOT. What a joke they are.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

I don't know why I started this journal.

 

[JustGeorge]

I don't know why I started this journal.

Probably to talk. You've got a tremendous amount of bovine feces on your plate, and it would be hard for just about anyone to process.

 

[Kathryn]

Probably to talk. You've got a tremendous amount of bovine feces on your plate, and it would be hard for just about anyone to process.

I totally agree.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

I am still dealing though with healthcare.gov and Medical Mutual, who sent me about six invoices with everything from credits to owing them nearly $2000 but when I called them - again - they gave me some amount that is not anywhere on anything and they keep trying to say that I owe them for the entire month of April, but I DO NOT. What a joke they are.

I'm sorry. Then they'll probably make you jump through hoops with a bunch of paperwork when it's their error. Bureaucracy is so wonderful.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Probably to talk. You've got a tremendous amount of bovine feces on your plate, and it would be hard for just about anyone to process.

I feel embarrassed.

 

[Kathryn]

I feel embarrassed.

Don't feel embarrassed! We all could be or have been where you are right now.

 

[JustGeorge]

I feel embarrassed.

There's nothing to be embarrassed about.

Its courageous to share of yourself the way you are doing.

 

[Kathryn]

I'm sorry. Then they'll probably make you jump through hoops with a bunch of paperwork when it's their error. Bureaucracy is so wonderful.

And the time I have spent on hold on the phone! Sheeze! They will probably cancel my policy before it's all said and done, even though I have been sending them a very large check every month. Even when they say I have a credit with them! (which I do not)

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

And the time I have spent on hold on the phone! Sheeze! They will probably cancel my policy before it's all said and done, even though I have been sending them a very large check every month. Even when they say I have a credit with them! (which I do not)

Sorry you're going through this. I hope you can get the help you need and this straightened out soon.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Just took my first hydroxyzine for anxiety. I don't think I've ever taken this medication before. I hope it doesn't make me fall asleep as I took it to get through my errands today.