From the rubbish you post I am sure that you never were a JW. You obviously think you were in some deluded fashion....but as Jesus said, the 'unsuitable fish' do not stay in 'the net'. (Matthew 13:47-50) They are discarded because they do not measure up to God's standards.
If you want to be your own 'faithful slave' then that is up to you. But I'd think twice about what I said if I were you.....'gnashing your teeth' as you do here on a regular basis, could be seen as an activity that Gamaliel warned about when the Jews were opposing Jesus' apostles.
"So under the present circumstances, I say to you, do not meddle with these men, but let them alone. For if this scheme or this work is from men, it will be overthrown; 39 but if it is from God, you will not be able to overthrow them. Otherwise, you may even be found fighters against God himself." (Acts 4:38-39)
You can trust God to take care of his own. He will take care of those who oppose his people as well.