Your not alone on this:
" And when he was come into his own country, he taught them in their synagogue, insomuch that they were astonished, and said, Whence hath this man this wisdom, and these mighty works? 55 Is not this the carpenter's son? is not his mother called Mary? and his brethren, James, and Joses, and Simon, and Judas? 56 And his sisters, are they not all with us? Whence then hath this man all these things?
and again, his own family:
Mark 3:21 When His own family heard this they went to take custody of Him; for they were saying, “He is out of His mind.”
Then again... James, the half-brother of Jesus, ended up a believer as did so many others that Jesus was the Messiah. They may have the better perspective IMO
I guess it is a matter of being convinced in ones own mind. We know where you stand for sure.
When Jesus went into the desert to fast and pray, before he began his ministry, he was visited by Satan. In the story of Adam and Eve, Satan was the originator of law or knowledge of good and evil as symbolized by Adam and Eve eating from the tree that was occupied by Satan. Law and Satan are connected by the symbolism of the tree, with God never condoning law or that tree.
Adam and Eve were fooled into believing that law was the high road, even though God warned and told them otherwise. Knowledge of good and evil and law brought death into the world, since humans would learn to stack the deck of law with shady lawyers, so it would became self serving.
Satan, when he visited Jesus in the desert, among other things, promised Jesus all the wealth and power of all the kingdoms of the earth, if Jesus would bow and serve him. Jesus never said that Satan did not have this authority, since Jesus knew Satan was the Lord of the Earth in charge of the banished humans after the fall. Satan was not just evil, but is good and evil, like law.
Had Jesus accepted that offer by Satan, Jesus would have become the Messiah who was anticipated in the Old Testament. That Messiah was supposed to be rich and powerful and able to subdue all the enemies of Israel. Satan gave Jesus that option, since Satan was in charge of Humans. But Jesus gracefully declines the offer, since he came to earth supersede law, and bring humans back to paradise.
Jesus had the choice to become the Messiah who was anticipated in the Old Testament, but that meant continuing the trajectory of the original sins of Adam and Eve, by choosing Satan and law. Instead Jesus decided to make a different choice. Law was from Satan, and Jesus wanted to set the clock back and predate the fall from paradise, when Adam and Eve were still pure; New Adam.
Law was not a factor in paradise before Adam and Eve fell from grace. They were under faith and instinct. The anticipated Messiah was like an inner loop of fate/time, that had come full circle. A new tangent point suddenly appears, that lead us back to a new cross roads with one path leading to before the fall, when humans lived by faith, with God among them; paradise.
This choice of Jesus would lead to Satan being thrown from heaven.This symbolized that law and eating of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, no longer had a divine purpose. The symbolism showed law becoming only from man; atheism, with humans still serving Satan after his fall. After Jesus. humans were placed at the crossroads like Adam and Eve, since the New Adam made it possible to loop another way and return home, or one could choose Satan again.
Under the law, genealogy was important; bloodline. But descending from DNA alone, does not guarantee anything in the future, since DNA changes with time; evolution. Faith in bloodlines or DNA, would cause people to rest on their laurels as though being born of a certain clan, gives you an edge, that does not need any extra effort beyond the legal paper work. The Jews were looking for a Messiah connected to them by bloodline, and could not see the capacity for change that genetics diversity brings. Jesus opens the door to the Gentiles so the Holy Spirit had more ways to work; Saints are from all races.