Ohhh Yes! I forgot!
I saw it after I posted this.
( Nice choice,
@Fool. )
I'm sorry for your loss.
Me too.
~nods~
I can see that. Nice pictures, bro.
~SMH~
Amein
Praise
Thank you. Very helpful.
I appreciate your enthusiasm and blessing my spirituality.
I would be dead, without it, or be in prison, is what I tell people who criticize my unflinching faith in my ghost friends as being pointless, holding me back, or say I'm being offensive to the more powerful and true God.
But, I know from experience, I'm hopeless without my spirit friends. They speak to me through coincidence, signs of predestined encounters, items found that were completely relevant to an important spiritual dream, locution, or vision, a flight of ideas, visions, and burning bush moments where I feel like Moses on mount sinai (Moses , take your shoes of, cuz you're on Holy ground
), sudden freedom from bodage that has been dominating me, when I pray to them, bless them, offer them my suffering.
And I lose my attachement to possessions and need for incarnate people. I want to have more and more unity with the more enlightened and ancient spirits who know more than me, or any Incarnate woman.
Relationships are dangerous for me. I leapt off a three story building and spent ten weeks in a wheel chair with a collapsed lung, the day I proposed to my true love. My urethra was clogged with scar tissue from a shattered pelvis, and after the scar tissue was removed by surgeouns, I was urinating blood clods larger than marbles, wearing depends drenched in blood, leaving trails of blood on the floor from my wheelchair.
Amazing the only thing I remember bleading much from the jump was my penis, but I wasn't conscious until long after being found and the surgery. I woke up confused, tube coming out of lung and throat from collapsed lung. I coundn't move. Could't talk to anyone . It was total hell. Fed through tube going into my stomach. I didn't get clogged with scartissue and have surgery on that until at least a month after the other surgerys. It was weird. Suddenly I couldn't pee and couldn't get a catheter in. That was torture.
Broke my back in two places, my shattered hip has much metal and a handful of screws (it looks terrible on a scan). People say it's physically painful to look at the x-ray after the metal and screws were put in. Lots of hardware!. Surgery on a broken left arm that screwed up my ring master and joker tattoos, two surgeries on my right shoulder (after it came out of socket 11 times). Cold in winter makes all the metal painful.
But it was a total miracle I survived, and have movement in my knees that the doctor said the x-rays say are abnormal for that condition of injury, meniscus, fracture. He tested all the movement in my knee compared to the x-ray and said "this is very unusual"
I was getting out of my wheel chair and able to walk before I had permission, and nurses were restraining me to keep in in the wheel chair as long as the doctor had ordered. I healed more quickly than I was supposed to.
Since then, my girlfriends are more ancient spirits, or spirits with more knowledge, open eyes,, living in a world/ domain / state of mind and soul, where they are far more enlightened than any human about the truth after death, the truth about the spiritual world, the truth about what is important, and can help me in ways that my incarnate earthly female partners could not. And they can be with me when I am in a jail cell, can be with me in solitary confinement at a concentration camp or gulag, be with me as I breath my last, and have my last heart beat, offering comfort, even if I'm surrounded by hateful people ...no living, loving human support.
My body is a Temple, where dwells the spirits that love me. Hopefully Hashem! I thank and praise him for my friends.