Okay, back to a few questions on Islam that I have...
* Is Mary considered to have been a perpetual virgin, as is found in the Catholic doctrine? (meaning she never had sex, even after Jesus' birth)
* Are all angels considered to be 'male' in gender? (I was reading some conflicting things about this the other day, and just would like clarity)
This is sort of a side question, and maybe there is no yes/no answer...but...during the past two years after I left Christianity, I stopped believing in the existence of a deity. I've shared my story elsewhere as to why I feel drawn to faith again, especially Islam, but I'm wondering if it is just a matter of asking for forgiveness of God? I have offered up a prayer in the fajr prayer...''God, forgive me for my unbelief...I do believe again. Please help my unbelief, and my doubts.''
I can't explain to you how this past week has gone for me, since reading the Qur'an, meditating on its words, and praying (not always 5x per day, but I'm getting better lol) The Fajr prayer transforms a person, brings a peace like I haven't felt in a long time. A void I have felt ...is gone. As an atheist, I would have considered this 'wishful thinking' on the part of the person praying, but it is hard to explain, unless you do it yourself. Anyway, I wanted to share this, because Islam is not a pass or fail test...yes, it has rules. Yes, it serves as a guide for its followers. But, it is an experience. To experience Islam, is very moving.
If one looks at faith or religion as merely a set of rules, it can seem dry and off putting in and of itself. But, when you experience what you are reading, when you pray...you will grow with it. I have much to learn, I may never become a 'scholar' of the Qur'an, but I'm not looking to be.