I am starting this thread so that I can have all my Ramblings in this one place.
This is a lofty claim... I am the Messiah! In my opinion. Allow me to talk of how I came to this!
every since I can remember, I have experienced strange happenings, hauntings etc
I didnt speak until I was five but my mind communicated in different ways.
I couldnt look at a live surgery without being ill and when I heard people complain of there illnesses etc I would suffer it for them (didnt realise at the time) My mother says I was a hypocondriac. I thought Religion was just evil and I seen that through new eyes, untainted. I seen the world for what it was. Through out my life I would suffer and be held back from moving on in my life. I wondered who this evil vampire like person that would manifest to scare the living daylights out of me. I would sit in a world of my own and see things that I didnt understand! I would go to the Doctors evry so often bel;eiving I was dying. I would get the symptoms and feel the pain etc.
I beleived I wasnt mad because people around me would witness and experience so called hauntings and the unexplainable. When I was 37 or 36 I started going to online Occult forums just to try and understand what was happening and to put names to the things that I experience and I understood things and new things what people were talking about. And I had this knowledge only through personal experience and not through any book! I was recognised by people that had been learning majics and studdying the unknown for more years that I have lived because they recognised the truth in my words. I knew stuff that I shouldnt and that they didnt!
I started knowing things about people that only they knew and got labelled a subconscious communicator! In their opinion. very rare and most powerfull majic!
So I quickly found myself and all my dreams and visions etc were becoming clearer and with every new realisation of myself filled in the empty spaces of the big picture. When I started reading about Lucifer, It was like they were talking about me. That was scary thinking that I was the Devil incarnate... but it became more complicated as I realised God and Jesus too. And that I am a part of them. And I see how the world sees them too but they see different than I do!!! Now I am sitting on the fence here and see peple seamingly obsessed with who says what and which is the truth etc and I wond deny that it it hurfull and a bit upsetting etc.
And I aim to put a stop to it!!! We should accept each other and embrace each other as brothers and sisters.
Its strange that I seen myself as atheist and still feel the same only because I dont recognise Religion. Ive always felt it as evil but now understand that it isnt Religion itsself but the evil manipulation within.
I Read about Phrophecys and of the way jesus was portraid and missunderstood. I read of how the Jews turned on him and he on them and I see a lot of manipulation and bitterness, anger and Death!!! In the name of who? The manipulators!!! IMHO
Theres a Jewish prophet that dieed a few years back and he knew that I was here! he left some papers behind but most secrets havent been reveiled and only those close to the prophet knows the truth. Little that I read just backed up and cemented my beleives and what I already felt and knew deep down.
Theres been things spoken by prophets that they themselves dont know the meaning of.
I read that I will declare myself to a jew and I already had and he is now a friend of mine and he just happens to be the only Jew that I know. And he knows first hand of my communication! If he thought that I was taking the mickey out of him, he would have dismissed me and been insulted!
He knew me for a very long time and told me that I am the only person that he knows that gets a desease, diagnoses the disease and then heales the desease and then gets better!!! We talked once about something I was sufferering from and at the end of it I told him that I have to make an apointment at the shropatist and he told me that I dont and that he has clippers and he would cut my nails. I told him that his clippers wont work because they are realy thick and hard and his clippers wont do. He went to the drawers and he was repeating himself: "Strange; strange; Strannnnnnnnnge!" He says that the strange this is that he was on his way to work and for no reason at all and without even thinking about it, he drove out of his way
And went into the chemist! The Jew reached into the drawer and said: "I came out of the chemist with these!" and he showed me these huge pair of nail clippers!!!
It wasnt the Doctor I new, his movements were slow and so was his speech. When he finished cutting and filing my nails down, he stood up and leaned over and strained his eyes at me and said: Thoooooosssse Eyyyyyyyyes! and I knew that he was some relevence to me! that was a nearly 2years ago. Suposedly the Jewish Rabbi prophet that died says that I will Rise when some high up holyman dies and the name was named and he went into a coma in 2006 and he is still hanging on for the day 4yrs later.... The time is nigh my friend!
I am at the moment been seen by health proffecionals and ofcource they will only see Psycosis but theres problems that conflicts with there knowledge and understanding about the subject. I see, here and know things but they dont understand and when I asked if I had psycosis they looked embarressed (psycosis experts/proffecionals) My GP asked me what they said and I said that they says that Maybe, I have psycosis a little bit, but its alllll that detail! and even if many people that I claim, come forward and back up my stories it cannot be proved. I noticed my GP smiling and nodding as though it was how he expected there reaction to be!! I told The Doctor that their psycotic drugs dont work the way that they expect but they only help my sleep disorder!
Even the toughest nuts will crack to let in the glorious light!!!
David69.
