I've started to notice, now that I've relaxed a bit, that I have an innate desire to impress people. I don't lie or anything, maybe polish up the good things about myself to some extent, but I still mentally want to show off myself sometimes: to earn respect, or love, or recognition, or something... I think it's become a habit and I will have to be mindful about it to prevent doing it.
I'm not anxious, I forgive myself for this because it was an honest mistake and I didn't even realize I was doing it. I think I can turn this around. One step closer to being myself. How many more steps will it be? I don't know. I always feel like I'm near the end of figuring it out, and then I only find more ground ahead. At least I've stopped second guessing myself, though. And gotten better at not worrying about what people think. I think that was a leap.
I'm not anxious, I forgive myself for this because it was an honest mistake and I didn't even realize I was doing it. I think I can turn this around. One step closer to being myself. How many more steps will it be? I don't know. I always feel like I'm near the end of figuring it out, and then I only find more ground ahead. At least I've stopped second guessing myself, though. And gotten better at not worrying about what people think. I think that was a leap.