NewGuyOnTheBlock
Cult Survivor/Fundamentalist Pentecostal Apostate
That's not proof that it's inborn.
That may or may not be. What is clear is that other determining factors, such as abuse, have been ruled out. (With abuse, the cycle of abuse can be passed on generation to generation; we know this; but not necessarily the attraction being primary or exclusive). Point is, evidence is leaning very heavy at this time that it is, indeed, inborn.
This statement is not about behavior; but about the attraction itself. Studies indicate that somewhere between 4% to 20% of pedophiles actually ever offend.
Are you saying you believe we can consciously change our attractions?
No. I'm saying the opposite. I'm saying that no one chooses our attractions and that we can't consciously change them; and its harmful to try. I do advocate that behavior can be chosen. There are heterosexuals and gays who live celibate for religious or other reasons, for example.
I think that he is saying that there are ways to overcome one's desires.
Exactly!!
So avoidance of some sort is the only "cure".
Now, here we can really have some interesting discussion!
The public narrative goes something like this: Me, and people like me, are walking around, teeth gritted and fists clenched resisting these powerful urges all day, every day! Well, this is sometimes true for some of us all of the time. This is sometimes true for some of us some of the time. It is not true for all of us all of the time.
Our sexual predilections is only a part of who we are as human beings; and certainly not the whole. I view "Avoidance" as a tool we can use during recovery or treatment; or when something is going on in our lives that serves to destabilize us. When used as a cure all and end all, I think that this can actually cause a "backfire" affect as living "Avoidance" all the time is ultimately shame-based and fear-based; it leads to isolation and negative self-image, which are unhealthy. (I lived it religiously and fanatically and excessively for over 12 years on parole).
In regards to the Avoidance model, I once gave a small presentation in one of our workshops. My closing statement was something akin to: "It's not about cycles or high risk situations. It's not about avoidance or interventions. It's about perceptions and beliefs; empathy and compassion; morality; and our connection to our fellow man."
I believe it has its place. Pedophiles should be humble and wise to their limitations and remain within them; but not to the point where we're afraid to step out our door into the real world. So avoidance is a tool.
But the real "cure", in my opinion, is self-acceptance; devoid of feeling toxic shame for feelings that we did not choose and can not change, devoid of fear of feelings over which we have the power of choice. When we reach that point of replacing fear with wisdom and shame with humility, something really, really cool happens.
When we encounter a child in that serene mindset, the part of that child which serves to stimulate is no longer the focus of that child (because we are no longer afraid and ashamed). When its not the focus of the child, we are then able to see the child in their entirety: With a beautiful body, mind, heart; with a will of their own; their own consciousness, perceptions, wisdom -- When we stop tripping out over involuntary neurological and biochemical responses, we can see the whole child. When that state is reached, the idea of taking our predilections into behavior becomes nauseating and repugnant. When this stage is reached, few of us ever refer to our attractions as "urges"; but rather, "dualities", or "annoyances". When we see the child in the whole personhood that they truly are, the power of these feelings is subdued.
In prison, I did my required 18 months of Sex Offender Treatment. I voluntarily went back for more, doing another 5 years, give or take. Then, on parole, I went into Aftercare and did another 12 or so. We're talking almost 19 years, added together, if my math is right. When I stripped back "avoidance" and permitted myself to interact with the real world -- including children -- this was better therapy then all of the years of therapy before.
I empathize that this is a lot to take in; it was for me when I started to shed the Avoidance model and searched for more healthy ways to manage my attractions while upholding my oath to remain moral moving forward.
If it is beyond one's ability to take in, I get it; but I appreciate the effort put forth to listen.