First and foremost, I want you to know that my response to your OP isn't a personal attack against you. I'm not trying to call you out and discredit you, either. I want to make that clear to you that my response to your OP is sincere, as is my question.
Why did God help you and not me?
- 1. As a child, I prayed and asked God to stop the abuse. I constantly prayed and asked him to save me.
- 2. I suffered 14 years of physical abuse, physiological abuse, sexual abuse, and constant bullying in school.
- 3. I've suffered from PTSD for several years now. I suffer from many physical ailments that hinder my life.
- 4. I'm dealing with depression and anxiety, and I'm still haunted by the trauma I suffered while growing up.
- 5. I wasted 31 years of my life desperately holding onto the false hope that God loves me and he'll help me.
I used to believe that God is real, but I'm not sure about that anymore. Honestly, it's much less painful for me to believe that God doesn't exist, then accept the reality that God does exists, and he did absolutely nothing to stop the abuse and bullying I suffered while I was growing up. There was no escaping the constant abuse and bullying because no one in my family, or anyone else who knew my situation, tried to help me. No one called the police or CPS. I was left alone to deal with the living hell I was trapped in all by myself. God was nowhere to be found, either. God didn't intervene and save me, despite my frantic prayers to him. He allowed the abuse and bullying to continue while I was growing up. I suffered this abuse and bullying for 14 years until I left home when I was 18. I'm at the point now where I believe that I was a fool to hold onto my Christian faith for 31 years. Detoxing from Christianity has been a very painful experience for me, and I'm still in the process of letting go of my belief in God and letting go of my faith.