George's Spiritual Journal

[sun rise]

I'll give it a listen when I can be undisturbed.

The last time I had a dark night, Krishna came. After I hollered at him, of course. Because the powers that be think its funny to get me yelling... I think. I don't yell very much. (Unless its for show, but its not genuine.)

I first spelled that dark knight, and then realized that was incorrect, and deleted it. Hm.

Maybe you really need to have a good, healthy yell given what you have dealt with and Krishna knows it.

NB: During my psychology days I attended a group "primal-type" session where the instructors created an atmosphere that caused many of us to yell and weep uncontrollably. It was the first time in my life that I was really open to totally surrendering to crying. It was very therapeutic and the ability to cry has remained with me ever since.

 

[JustGeorge]

Maybe you really need to have a good, healthy yell given what you have dealt with and Krishna knows it.

That was awhile ago... Ten years, probably.

I once lost my temper and threw the chair I was sitting in against the wall. Maybe its time to throw a chair again, but I don't know where to toss it.

NB: During my psychology days I attended a group "primal-type" session where the instructors created an atmosphere that caused many of us to yell and weep uncontrollably. It was the first time in my life that I was really open to totally surrendering to crying. It was very therapeutic and the ability to cry has remained with me ever since.

I used to find fighting therapeutic(physical, for sport). I'd like to be able to do that one day again, but that may be awhile.

I'm glad you gained that ability.

 

[JustGeorge]

My! exclaimed the Wart, while his eyes sparkled with excitement at the discovery. "I must have been on a Quest!" (From the Once and Future King by T.H. White)

Something tells me this'll ring true one day.

And it sure as hell explains my clothing choices.

Though I find people poke about general appearance less than they did 20 years ago, in the event I do get questions or comments, this will do fine. I will simply look at the person as if they're silly, and explain that I'm on a Quest.

 

[sun rise]

Something tells me this'll ring true one day.

And it sure as hell explains my clothing choices.

Though I find people poke about general appearance less than they did 20 years ago, in the event I do get questions or comments, this will do fine. I will simply look at the person as if they're silly, and explain that I'm on a Quest.

Quests can be a lifetime of "fun".

 

[JustGeorge]

Quests can be a lifetime of "fun".

I'd like to have less 'fun'.

If I must have fun, why can't I get Merlyn to tutor me?

 

[sun rise]

I'd like to have less 'fun'.

If I must have fun, why can't I get Merlyn to tutor me?

If I see him, I'll tell him you are eagerly awaiting him.

 

[JustGeorge]

If I see him, I'll tell him you are eagerly awaiting him.

Thanks! Appreciate it.

 

[JustGeorge]

Its a hard thing, when you realize how little you actually matter.

Maybe, in some broad concept... maybe. I don't know. I don't pretend to.

It's a theme that keeps coming up this week... it doesn't matter how upset I am, I will have to put my feelings aside to deal with someone else's.

I hope something worthwhile comes of this one day.

 

[Quagmire]

Its a hard thing, when you realize how little you actually matter.

Maybe, in some broad concept... maybe. I don't know. I don't pretend to.

It's a theme that keeps coming up this week... it doesn't matter how upset I am, I will have to put my feelings aside to deal with someone else's.

I hope something worthwhile comes of this one day.

Someone once told me that being taken for granted was a compliment.

Almost 40 years later and still trying to figure out what the hell they were talking about.

 

[JustGeorge]

Someone once told me that being taken for granted was a compliment.

Almost 40 years later and still trying to figure out what the hell they were talking about.

Maybe "you're doing your job so well, no one notices or cares!"

If that's the case, time to stop doing one's job.

 

[Quagmire]

Maybe "you're doing your job so well, no one notices or cares!"

If that's the case, time to stop doing one's job.

You're reading my mind.

That said, I foresee a lot of YouTube videos and online casinos in my near future.

 

[JustGeorge]

You're reading my mind.

That said, I foresee a lot of YouTube videos and online casinos in my near future.

I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't doing my job.

Maybe wander around town in a chicken suit.

 

[Quagmire]

I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't doing my job.

Bet it would be nice to find out though huh?

Maybe wander around town in a chicken suit.

I suspect that this is your true calling, and you're doing humanity a great disservice by ignoring it.

 

[JustGeorge]

Bet it would be nice to find out though huh?

I might go into shock.

I suspect that this is your true calling, and you're doing humanity a great disservice by ignoring it.

I contemplate it sometimes...

I'd probably save the chicken suit for the winter months, when its logical to wear one.

But the call to being a wandering eccentric is loud some days. Just wander, carry my staff, and sing. No reason, just walk and sing.

Maybe when the kids are grown. Though I could see Yudhi trailing along. He would love the attention.

 

[beenherebeforeagain]

Someone once told me that being taken for granted was a compliment.

Almost 40 years later and still trying to figure out what the hell they were talking about.

Astronaut Buzz Aldrin, in reflecting on his family growing up: "Silence was an answer. "No" was a compliment."

 

[Quagmire]

No" was a compliment

Well, I guess that would depend on the question, wouldn't it?

 

[sun rise]

I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't doing my job.

With your kids, I hope that with time your job becomes manageable with much less stress than currently. That would be worth celebrating.

Bet it would be nice to find out though huh?

I bet something would emerge.

 

[JustGeorge]

With your kids, I hope that with time your job becomes manageable with much less stress than currently. That would be worth celebrating.


I bet something would emerge.

It's probably a training ground of sorts...

For what, I'm a little fearful.

Am I actually going to have to take down a dragon or something?

I do have a sword... I bought it on eBay 15ish years ago.

 

[sun rise]

It's probably a training ground of sorts...

Life is a training ground. Your training in this life is the equivalent of climbing Mount Everest.

For what, I'm a little fearful.

Maybe in a few years helping others who are dealing with some of the same challenges? Or writing about it which people will find helpful? Or speaking about it in various arenas? Or maybe something completely different but still positive.

Am I actually going to have to take down a dragon or something?

Doing your best to help Ares deal with the "dragon" of his nature is what I would call dragon taming. That's MUCH harder than taking one down.

 

[JustGeorge]

Life is a training ground. Your training in this life is the equivalent of climbing Mount Everest.

A shame I was never attracted to mountain climbing. (I cussed out the Blue Ridge Mountains once, but they ignored me.)

Maybe in a few years helping others who are dealing with some of the same challenges? Or writing about it which people will find helpful? Or speaking about it in various arenas? Or maybe something completely different but still positive.

I'm hoping its something different. After it taking up so much of my life, I'm stale with it.

Doing your best to help Ares deal with the "dragon" of his nature is what I would call dragon taming. That's MUCH harder than taking one down.

I think a dragon would take one look around here and run.