You probably need to read back through the history of what posts I was replying to and what those, in turn, were in response to. I was basically commenting on someone else's explanation of their life/religion story. Not even close to mine.
And here's where I blow your mind. I have basically lived a nearly "charmed" life, of a sort, and yet I am not a believer. Nor do I dip my cup into many of the sins you'd sit there and say were of "the darker side". I was raised by good parents, who I love dearly. I have a wife and 3 children, any of whom I would die for without hesitation if the need arose. I rarely drink, hate the club/strip/gambling scene, laugh at peer pressure, have what I consider to be a strong sense of justice, I'm a vegan for ethical reasons over health, and I am in good health - have been to the doctor for super-minor (ridiculously minor, honestly) issues maybe 3 times in the past 20 years, I don't believe that I have ever truly suffered throughout my life, to be honest - holding a stark understanding that someone else has always had it worse than I ever have. Not saying I haven't made mistakes, done the wrong thing from time to time in my life - but I am no detriment to society by any stretch of the imagination. In all seriousness I have emotionally hurt 2 people for sure that I can think of, and have never intentionally hurt anyone physically - well... that's discounting my brother because, hey, we're brothers, and also discounting a very few times I felt I had to act in self-defense.
If God exists, and all the rules that people have come up with and written down do, indeed, apply in His eyes, then I'll accept my fate - whatever He deems necessary. I take full responsibility for my beliefs, or lack thereof - and as of yet, I have found myself unable to be moved or swayed by any testimony, or any supposed "show" of power. The realm of the religious and spiritual is lost on me, entirely, and I couldn't care much less about that. And before you go smirking to yourself and snidely point out that I am here on a "religious" forum, which you might say puts me in the shoes of one "seeking" - that's garbage. I am here for the same reasons as anyone here. Putting my word out and trying to make people question a bit more - hoping that some might come to understand some of the things that I feel I understand. In a way it is perhaps a quest for validation - I'm not here to save anyone, but to search the nooks and crannies of ideas and philosophies to make sure I've rooted everything out that needs rooting out in order to prove to myself that the way I think is the correct one.