That ain't heavy?
You are carrying the burden of hell. It is really quite beyond my comprehension how anyone can touch the Spirit, and even concieve of such nonsense. No offense, but I worry for you. It is most likely that the burdens of the mortal realm weigh one down at the threshold of eternity; and I honestly believe - this hell, this misinterpretation of the threshold - is one of the worst things to bring to the transition point. I've been there, Thief's been there; I cannot speak for Thief, but I have such an absolute - lack - of the "fear of death" that I basically cannot talk of such things in public.
Coupla days ago, writing about algebra? I wasn't discussing book learning, I was there. Four hours, dancing around my house, joyous; all those words to say nothing other than to lessen your burden. I mean, I could feel it. All these mortal woes and worries, all this striving in vanity, all this perception of causal time - none of it is about what we really are. None of it. This concept of sin is nothing more than the animal within us all operating within the confines of a finite environment. Competition for resources, for mates, for status; all that is the animal. It is not wrong, it is natural; one who touches the spirit should be able to see beyond these things.
I got two things: I love, and god does not do sequential time. Considering simultanity and the Spirit, disregarding the environmental hazards of coveteousness, pride, jealousy - jump into the Bible, whole thing makes sense. I have yet to find a sacred text that I cannot fall into, and jump out of with a bunch of joy.
Born into sin is born into mortal flesh. The secret of the sabbath is to give your inner wolf its moments of howling at the moon. Be courteus of life, and life will be courteous to you...
And there really ain't no death. Live in joy and harmony.