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During that time, every day was a struggle to get to the next, until the urge subsided, now I am in control and not the fleshly instincts, now I am truly free. Agape love does not need sex, agape love is an unselfishness way to give to another person your affection and care. I did believe that by having sex with my wife I was loving her, but now I have discovered a deeper love for her, a pure love, i have discovered agape love, I see the world in a different light.
Ah so here we see the REAL truth....
You have sexual issues, so you think everyone else should be sexually prohibited and dysfunctional.....
It is quite clear it is YOU that have problems with sex, not God
But then, this attitude you have toward sex, to the point where you'd prefer to actually abstain, as it is more "loving", is very common amongst christian fundamentalists.
I, myself pity the poor women, married to a man for sometimes a decade or longer who simply finds sex to be disgusting, but is not prepared to admit it to himself.
You may also be homosexual yourself, it sounds possible. Thus your disgust is largely directed inwards, at yourself, because you are not able to enjoy something sacred that God has given us.... SEX; because you feel dismay and disgust that in your heart of hearts, you are not sexually attracted to women at all.
I know of a guy, his family are christian fundamentalists, he got married, had children...yet during the decade of his marriage, he secretly went out and had sex with men, but because of his religious background, he felt extreme guilt, which manifested in rage and violence.
May I suggest you seek within yourself your own problems. Your own neurosis. For it is quite clear, whatever your actual story is, you have a deep seated problem with sex.
